Life On The Edge

I sit in hell telling my story
you wouldn’t believe what its like
lots of fire
the walls, trees, houses
even the water
anyways

It feels like yester day
but I was unconscious longer then that
but I had hurt myself
made a stupid mistake

I was depressed
I missed my ex so much
and there was no way of getting him back
I drugged myself
I turned to them
when I shouldn’t have

I went to a party
not really in the mood
I got drunk
in my condition it wasn’t the best thing
I was dizzy
I step on the line
and my life flashed before my eyes

Next I woke up
fire beside me
fire all around me
when my dead grandmother
dead for a year
was looking at me with a sad look
was a dreaming
was I seeing a mirage
was I crazy
seeming to read my mind and my questions
my grandmother told me
I had died
I had gone to the other side
the side of death

At first I couldn’t breathe
but then I realized how stupid I was
I can’t breath when I’m dead
I don’t have a heart beat
but I still feel the pain from my last love
the reason for all of this
I let out a sob
will grandma put her arm around me

She took me above
it hurt so bad
no one could see me, or even hear me
I saw my ex
and almost died again
when it came to my family
I cried so hard
my parents were so depressed
almost how I was
they mopped around

I visit there everyday now
I watched them run out of money
for they couldn’t deal with life
I was their only child and I was gone
they live in a dumpster
getting lower and lower on money
as they slowly die of
starvation, dehydration, and grief
all because of me
I made a wrong decision
I hurt everyone

So that is my story
embarrassing but true
I might as well have killed
everyone
for I’ve killed myself and them
because I let my emotions
push me over the edge