I really didn’t mean it

I really didn’t mean it daddy
But when mummy went away
Lucy wanted to find her
I wanted her to stay

She didn’t know where mummy went
Or when she would be home
But she wanted to see her
Lucy felt all alone

We crept out to that big house
Where I saw mummy once before
I don’t know why Lucy didn’t come
Probably coz she’s four

We then saw our mummy
She looked happy to see us there
But Lucy seemed so upset
As she gazed into her stare

Lucy said she wanted to stay with mummy
And next to her fall asleep
So she could spend eternity
With the memories she struggled to keep

She climbed up next to mummy
And wrapped herself in her arms
And looked so happy smiling
With closed eyes, looking calm

I only did what Lucy wanted
Her and mummy forever
I didn’t want them to forget each other
They needed to be together

I put my hand over her mouth
And slit her wrists apart
And as her blood and life drained away
Her angel life with mummy would start