The monster within

From a young age, when I was nine a was molested by my uncle. Ever since I have blamed myself and titled myself a pedophile and as I’ve gotten older it has become more. Now I am fighting back these feelings and this poem is about just that…
I sit here afraid of what I am becoming
All it takes is the first move
My world will come crashing down around me
Along with another
How long can I keep running from who I am?
Can I hold these feelings inside?
Could I really let these demons over take?
And tear a little heart into two
The final decision is up to me
No one can help me now
I’m searching for something
All I see is keen eyes waiting for a quick fix
I scream for mercy, I tell these demons to go
And attach them self’s to another
Or is it just me
Is this what I am?
Am I the demon in the end?
Will it come down to ending me?
Or destroying another

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By aaron mckinnon
Published: 8/31/2005 		Your Contributions: Tell us a Poem! You don't have to be a Buzzle.com author to contribute to Poetry Bee. Submit a poem of your own right now!
 
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