Complicated Love / Suicide

I miss you from places I haven't been
It can’t be happening, is this all a dream?
You seemed so real, like I could reach you
Am I making this all a big deal?

You oust to hug me from farer place I could see you, do as you please not say as you do.
People are coming in and out of my life, ruling things I haven't yet discovered,
I’m crying inside, just like a lie that shouldn’t be covered.

Not yet seen or even heard, not fling free in the air like a small bird. I can't keep it inside anymore feeling used and things packed, kicked out of the door.

Mated lying to my face, I don't think I could trust, leaving me out I need to lay low or play free I must. But somehow I can’t find the real me deep inside my blood, killing myself inside, I don't think I should . So here I am in music writing this typical letter, listening to the keyboard and piano, I don't think I better.