Before

Before I didn't know but now I know how much I love you.
At first we went into this not knowing what to find with much expectation yet so much curiosity.
I thought it was something that would pass me by, you know just a thing.
Before I didn't know but now I know.
All we did was argue and be confused because we both had different views.
Therefore misconceptions of what our relationship was and was supposed to be about. Arguing until we were blue in the face but never cursing each other out.
Why we did this sometimes I still couldn't figure out.
I mean I messed around, you lied and cheated but every time we spilt apart soon after we came right back.
Before I didn't know but now I know.
We soon got tired of each other but too scared to tell each other what we felt at the time. But you broke the ice, let me go by telling a lie and ever since then, late at night I cry sometimes, raged with anger, blaming myself, or even asking god why.
But they say you can't blame others for the evil that makes you cry, but when you left I felt an emptiness inside.
Before I didn't know but now I know.
At first I was angry but got over it by tears, and now I sit back and look back and think how much our relationship has changed over the years.
Went from being friends to lovers to nothing at all.
Both angry that we let our love fall and neither one of us have yet to pick up the ball. Before I didn't know but I now I know.
How much I love you, I love you so much that I have to let you go so that we can learn from this and one day grow.
And if it's meant to be our paths again will cross so that we can rekindle the love that we let fall because it is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all.