Mommy What Have You Done

I have made my final cut of the day but now I can't see through the blood and the pain. I don't know how to tell you and I don't know why when you the reason that makes me want to die. As you hunt me in my sleep I find it hard to just count sheep. I count my scars and how many times you said that you would come back. Well all of what you say is fiction never fact. Mommy I need you now in this time of despair, I mean I have no one to hold me during my everyday nightmares. I miss you so and I’ll never let your love go but if you can't call or be there for me then mom I’m so but soon my love will leave. You have put me through so much; I don't even know why I’m writing this. God what the f**k beating me yelling doors locked all alone in my room. Oh so cold while meanwhile you’re all drugged up with a guy on top and I saw you guys f**k. I can't believe that you did this to me. All the lies I didn't see I wish that I could say that I hate you but a part of me seems to say no but mommy you’re growing to be so alone. Just once I wish I could hear your voice, make it all happen, give me a choice. My life is now in your hands and if you respond wrong I’m sorry mom but I’ll be dead and you can see what drugs do. Not to just you but me mom your daughter. Remember the one who helped you all those nights, the one who made sure that you knew a little bit about wrong and right. Just remember when you stare at my empty grave my spirit has come back and it's you that it craves…