*Fear*

Today I wish I wasn’t here
So I wouldn’t have to go back to you
And all these broken promise
The pain is growing
And it’s crushing my soul
You use to call me to tell me you loved me
NOW you don’t call me at all
You have slapped me across the room to many times
I just can’t take it anymore
We were so happy and now were fighting over stupid shit
You come at me and I know you are going to hit me by the way you raise your hand
But this time I have a knife
I hold it so tight that my hands are purple
You’re coming at me and I feel myself shaking
I push it at you with all my force
Stabbing deep in to your heart
I see the blood all over my hands
You look at my hurt and ask why
I begin to cry
The man is yelling at me to walk out of the house
But all I can see is your body lying on the floor lifeless
I wipe my face and can feel all the pain
They all ask why I did it but they don’t ever get an answer
I don’t even know why I did it
Cause you hurt me
Cause you crushed my dreams
Or was it because I was scared
Doesn’t matter NOW
You’re gone and I sit at your grave wondering if it all could have been different
If you just once had loved me!