It was once and never again

I had a love,
I knew him well,
going through high school,
no one could tell,
I was the only one who knew,
no one else,
I could tell, I kept it all to myself,
a year went by,
and all I knew,
I was the one getting screwed,
my friends had the same love,
went out with him too,
for this is the reason I wont tell you,
I cant let them know,
they would be mad,
for I keep it inside,
I lock the door,
for no one shall know forever more,
one day I was cool,
strettin my stuff,
he noticed me and we hit it off,
a few days later I find something out,
the secret I held was now let out,
I was scared of people knowing,
while the wind was blowing my hair,
I realized,
I need it to stop,
he's not that hot,
plus he's a little slut,
so I forget him but always he's in my heart!