Wishing I Was Dead

Inside there is a little black sin
The kind of sin that dwells within
We all have one and can use it at any time
But I always choose to use mine
I sat there staring in the mirror all alone
I wondered what was my purpose in life
And then you called on the phone
After we said our goodbyes
I remembered all of those sorrowed cries
Once again I am in room standing right in front of it
I open the dresser drawer until I see the shiny object
I place it to my wrist
And remember how I wish I didn’t exist
As I place it down in to my skin I felt this sensation
I did not do this out of temptation
But to actually do something that felt right
That is when I’m dripping blood and I took my life
With one slash of the knife
When you return you call out my name
To hear nothing and you’re the one to blame
You go into my room to see my cld on the floor
Are you proud of me now daddy now that I closed my life line door?
I don’t regret what I did
I just wish you knew why I did
I am now being buried and you’re tears are falling
But hey mommy the angels gave me a calling