Restraint

I feel like cutting off all my fingers,
To keep them running through your palm.
I want to lose my lips and tongue,
To retain them from kissing yours,
I wish I could scratch my eyes out,
To stop them staring deep into yours,

I try so hard to walk straight,
To avoid laughing at your ways,
Keep myself from going back,
But it'll come again one of these days,

Because I'm falling for you every time,
All you have to do is look at me,
And all I can remember is my heart beating,
Not the reality of what I should see,

I should see all the pain you caused,
All the times you told me lies,
Every other time you took me up,
And dropped me down later that night,

But I don't because you're you,
I can't explain what I believe,
But inside I sort of know,
That one of these days you won't leave...