Forgive Me

I was stupid
I called my Mom a bitch in a previous post
Sure I have felt that way
But it was a short time a very long time ago
I have a better relationship now with both of parents
Than was ever possible as a kid
I speak to either of them at least a couple times a month
I see them every 2-4 years even though they are both remarried
I also call my mother a fag in one of my jokes
and compare her to a nelly old queen
Deal ol' Mom- she loved it when I told her
I guess I am lucky that with all the dysfunction I have endured
And if I didn't like mine I could borrow from any family member
That not only to I talk with my parents
I can visit for 7-10 days without it driving anyone crazy
So I guess good things do come to those who wait
I waited for my family to be OK, grown-up and with-it
And we are just about there.
If I had any hair it would probably fall out due to shock
But that doesn't matter
All that matters is that we were able to salvage our bonds
Growing up I envied people in a sober home with mom and dad
I saw but could not really understand what I was missing
And now that I have it- I am just happy to have it
Screw the past -
All that matter's is what I have now
And to slowly work towards an even better tomorrow.
Sorry - I know - it's not very funny
Well when you pay me you can have it like you want it
till then-
bite off (just kidding)
I think