Closed Emotions

I can't admit that I have feelings for guys because I was hurt before, and this problem goes on even when we've broken up, this is a poem about that!
My face is rigid as my back,
And I’m looking straight ahead,
On the outside, all is well,
the pain is all in my head,

I'm attempting a little smile,
Lying to every eye I meet,
All looks good from where you stand,
But my heart can hardly beat,

Why can't I just admit defeat,
Show the hurt, sorrow, the rage,
And not wear the mask of happiness,
Saving the upset for a page,

No one will think any less of me,
They've felt the abandonment too,
But I don't want to show the grief,
Show that I had feelings for you,

I'm sorry I couldn't open up,
That I didn't run to you for more,
That I got scared of feeling attached,
I'm sorry, I've been hurt before.

By Poppy Fields
Published: 4/18/2005 		Your Contributions: Tell us a Poem! You don't have to be a Buzzle.com author to contribute to Poetry Bee. Submit a poem of your own right now!
 
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