Thanks for the Manic Moment

So
I haven’t been watching TV during the days
Unless it's a depressing day
Being bi-polar with mixed episodes
everyday is a mixed blessing
As for the cigarettes- what can I say
Just like every relationship I've ever had
Stimulating at first
And then the depressing quality kicks in
Realizing this effect also makes me realize I have been self medicating with nicotine
I tried Zyban but it made me manic
as if I'd be talking with God again
Not that I have a problem with that
but you will be happy to know
she is bald and the joker most of us believe her to be
Come on everything is on auto-pilot
what else does she have to do but watch us and laugh
I say OK God- you are a joker
Well I'll make the best of this punchline
I feel as if I've lived past my expiration date
also I haven’t found the stamp
I'm still looking
So now I'll make the best of what I got
Hey God- Am I closer to you more than most people
they are uni-polar , I am bi-polar and you are Tri-Polar
No wonder I pray to you- you need it as bad as me
Thanks for the Manic Moment