Lost Existence

I feel so empty;
My existence drowning
In the deep hole within me.
I am filled with love to give,
Yet somehow I?m void
Of all emotions.

Looks like I?m drained,
Drained of my power to love,
To love and keep.
I?m scared. I shiver at the sight of love.

I run away from my fears.
My fears of loss and abandonment.
I drive her away, yet I want her close by.
But time waits for no one, she goes away.
I feel empty.

I am lost without her.
I have forgotten her love.
She has forgotten my name.
She has crossed the lands.
I see her no more; faceless.

I shed tears, they turn to ice.
I bleed of hot lava.
I feel strange, I feel alone.
I?m surrounded with familiar faces,
But none can fill the void.
Not even her anymore.