Free

I know I can't force
anyone to love me,
I don't even need someone
to love me just as much as I just
want someone to care,
to care how I feel to care
what I do someone who
can understand the way
I am and not judge me on it.

I want it to stop
the hurt that I have in my heart
it feels as though hooks have been
put through it and are pulling them.

I want to be free
free from me,
free from love,
free from hate,
deceit, and sin
free from my body,
free from this life.

I want to die…