Because of Him

I hate what’s going on with me lately.
It’s his fault
If he didn’t say anything I would be happy right now.
I wouldn’t be suffering and I definitely wouldn’t be acting weird around him.
I just wanna SCREAM
When I see him I just want to bash in his brain!
Which is really odd because I like him so much and
I don’t know what I would do if I couldn’t see him.
All I do is talk about him.
I wanna complain to my friends but I can’t.
They have their own problems to worry about.
I see how sad they all are with their own problems,
I don’t want to burden anyone with my problems.
Sometimes I think it would just be easier if I went through with my plan.
Ya I know if I did some people would miss me, but
I wonder if he would care.
I want to know his true feelings.
I know he doesn’t like me, but
Maybe it’s just him
Or maybe it’s something about me and that’s why none of the other guys liked me.
Maybe I should just disappear
Then everyone will be happy,
back to normal.
Nobody would have to deal with me
Or any of my problems.

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