Lord....remember my little prayer?

Lord...remember my little prayer...when I wished my friends a little something for valentines day? When I asked you to send someone special for everyone? Someone who would love them for who they are? And how they look? Remember that...? When I decided to be unselfish for those small few moments?? Remember?...well I do...and you must of too…because you remembered my little prayer of my friends....you sent someone for her and she is undying happy...Lord I’m extremely happy for her...becuz she deserves someone like him...someone who is totally nice funny sweet caring and smart....remember him...he was in my old wish...Lord you must of thought of to give him to her....someone who will love her like that…like he "loved" me....but Lord...somehow. I think you sent the wrong guy...the guy...who I cared the most about...or at least used to care about....Lord I couldn’t help but have the same feelings for him now...and even after...we broke up....I cant help but cry to know I made a mistake...a BIG mistake...I think I gave up part of my world...just a little bit of it...Lord...but do you also remember a wish I made not long ago...when I prayed for you to give me one more chance...that I wouldn’t ruin it like I did before...I cant believe its gone this far...to where I can only think of him and her together except me and him...honestly...Lord....I’m sorry...I made a mistake…and I guess this is how I will pay...but couldn’t you have made it less painful?....less...annoying...less...hurtful...something that wouldn’t keep me up all day thinking of him and her?...just make this all go away....let me go back...let me fix my mistake...........if only life was that easy?........