Don’t know why

Don’t know why i am like this,
I feel like shit and insane.
I walk with my head down,
Soaked in seasonal affective disorder.
Not caring of what happens around me,
That’s the way I live.
I’ve become negative and quiet,
Why should I be wild, nobody cares!!
My love ones don’t notice me,
They think I don’t care,
But if they could only see
That I try to pay attention.
Don’t know why,
How did i come this far?
With no one left in the world,
Just myself with a hole in my sole.
Not even you can help me with this emptiness,
I’m tired, lonely and a mess.
Lost in this dark side of mine,
I really don’t know what’s on my mind.
I’m running away from myself,
And I’m trap in what’s not real anymore.
The people, things and colors are now a blur,
Don’t know why,
These things are playing tricks on my mind.
In the end,
I’m the one losing it all.
The loneliness; sadness….
It doesn’t work.
Guess I have to get used to the idea that I’m nothing…
I’m a failure.