My sad times- when I was down

Mommy mommy where’s daddy, he said he would be here an hour ago
But no no it’s all over, my daddy isn’t coming as usual
I always call him to say goodnight but all I hear is him yelling at me for the whole time.
I’m scared of him so bad; he hurt me so much, what to do it’s all too sad.
My mommy doesn’t know but when I used to go visit him all bad and evil would come.
He would drink beer and give a frown and he wouldn’t stop until he fell down and got hung over.
He use to kick and hit me, I wish this could change but no it won’t its stuck in me forever.
I’ll never forget that moment when mommy got purposed to and I hated it because of all the junk my daddy filled my little head up with.
It’s not fair, my step daddy is always there, when I’m sick or sad he would tuck me in bed.
Well now I hate my daddy and want my biological daddy to meet me and see the troubles I’ve been through.
I wish I could start everything all over again then I could redo all the mean things to my step daddy who I really love.
He is my real daddy now to me and why because he is always here for me when I’m down
Goodbye, everything in my world it’s all over, forgive me.
Good bye good bye... I sliced my wrist, it didn’t help gggrrrrrr I wish to drown...in reverse of new life!