Ryan

I hate the way you make me feel.
I mean ya sure I’m happy when I see you,
but then you say or do something that makes me want to smack you.
Not because you're being rude,
but because I’ve been hanging out with you for like a month,
yet you still don't know my name.
I don't exist to you. I wish I could change that but I can't.
What's the point of even trying to get your attention or telling you how I feel?
You don't care and it totally sucks because I care about you so much and you'll never know.
You are the reasons I do some of the things I do.
The good things and the bad.
When you act like I don't exist it makes me want to hurt myself.
You make me want to disappear so I really don't exist.
But then there are the times when you talk to me or do something that makes me just want to slam you against a wall and make out with you, but I know that will never happen.
Sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me the way I think about you.
I wonder if you would want to be with me.
I eventually realize you will never feel this way about me.
I'm not sure how I know this but I know it's the truth and it's what is going to happen.
I miss you so much even though it's only been a couple of days it feels like it's been a couple of weeks.
I won't even see you for 3 more weeks and then I will only see you for 3 hours and I won't see you again.
It tears me up inside knowing this.

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-Katie