Why

I'm always the good friend, I always do the rite thing and make the rite decisions but if I'm always the good friend how come I never feel good inside?
It hurts how you can stop liking someone but then randomly start like them again?
It hurts to like someone who doesn't love you
It hurts to lie to your friend to make them happier
It hurts when I cry at nite bcuz I can't stop thinking of you
It hurts to kno I'll neverbe with you
I can't imagine how much I miss something that's not there?
I can't be the person who everyone wants to be like
I can't be your everything or your memory
I can't feel what it's like to really be loved
I don't kno what it's like to be loved
I don't kno how to be the # 1 friend
I don't kno how to be me?
I can't feel the way everyone else feels or be the one for you
I'm not everyone's fool, I'm not everyone's friend
Sometimes I don't even make sense
I run in the rain not bcuz it makes me happy but bcuz it makes me sad
I not gothic or just a loser, I'm me, I'm just me and I can't be
someone else's lie