It’s Too Hard

I told you that I wished to die
You laughed at me as I cried
You told me that you loved me
I should have know it was a lie
Now ill die from suicide
In one hand I held a knife
I cut myself to end this life
It’s to hard to cut the vain
But I hate this shit it’s so insane
So in my hand I hold the gun
I aim that s**t and slowly squeeze
Let this work oh god please
I couldn’t do it its way to hard
But never again will I drop my guard
Even after all this pain
My love for you is still the same
I miss the way I held you tight
I miss those long and happy nights
I can’t believe I let that end
I don’t know if ill be the same again
Then we had to say goodbye
That same night I died inside
I’ll never love like I loved you