Hurt, Pain, & Suffering

I saw this guy & fell in love. He said he wanted to get to no me but did he want to no the suicidal side of me? I looked into his eyes as he spoke sweet words: "My life is yours always & forever."

I went home & grabbed a knife. I looked at my vain & saw his name. A new girl came to his life he loved her so much I guess I was darkness to him & nothing more. I took the knife & drew a deep line across his name. I watched the blood fall from my vain. I wanted to die this very day so I cut again deeper then ever I cut to my bone but I didn’t die. I grabbed a piece of paper & decided to write a note for my friends on why I took my life. I took the knife to my throat. I slit it just once deep & long. The room went dark as I hit the wall I fell to the ground blood all around all I thought as I died was of him & nothing but.

This is what the note said:
My friends who are always there for me I guess this I couldn’t turn to you for. I fell for the guy you all adore. I carved his name deep in my vain as that bitch came into the picture. I felt the pain of a broken heart the only one who saw was him. He saw the red go to black he saw the suicidal side of me. I wanted to hide I wanted to scream but I new that wouldn’t end this. I wish I could have seen you all one last time before I took my final breath. I wish I could have told him my life, my story, & my love. But now I’m gone I’m in a better place the place I once talked about for hours. You all new the dark side of me. You all new my ways of hurt & pain. You all new the love that I used to show but now the love is gone, the pain has finally ended as I hit the wall. The blood ran down & found me on the floor I wish you all to forgive me & the one you all adore. But all I have left to say is: tell him that I did it, I did it for him only because I new he wanted me dead.....this is singed To: My Friends, From: The One That Caused You All So Much Pain...........