The last thought

It’s about thinking of how to kill yourself at attempts of suicide.
I think about living:
With this pain caused on earth:
(or):
Just dying:
And throwing away all the hurt:
It wouldn't be too hard:
There are many ways:
To end my life:
And never live another day:
Not like Id be missed:
No one even notices I’m here:
So I point the gun
But am now built up with fear:
So I go for a different way out:
I grab a knife:
Put it to my throat:
Hoping to end my life:
Everything is going well:
Until I cut too deep:
The gore pores out:
Yet, I’m not in eternal sleep:
Now, I find pills lying on the counter:
I read the label:
"very deadly"
The plan seems stable:
SO I take the pills:
Everything goes black:
My body goes numb:
The strength I need, lacks:
So here I sit dying:
In remorse:
I pray no one got hurt (besides me):
In my deadly course:

By heidie bunge
Published: 2/2/2006
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