You Whom I Love

Am I allowed?
Do I have the right?
Are there hidden messages deep within your smile?
Those arms I so long to be in are far from me now.
You, my dear, you are my sustenance.
You give me life, you make me feel immortal.
What I would give to kiss those lips.
To touch your face.
To be held in your arms once again.
The kind of connection we have could never be broken.
I feel like I know you so well, even though I don't.
My dear sweet boy, what's happened to you?
What's happened to us?
We were so close.
I loved you for who you were, but then something happened.
I miss you so.
I slowly pull away from life.
Because a life without you is barely living at all.
I descend in a spiral of memories.
Please, come back.1