You Give Me Butterflies 3

Ring Ring. I jumped at the sound of my telephone ringing beside me, that’s how absorbed I had become in my English literature assignment. I searched for the phone under all the papers scattered over my desk, after a few seconds and whole lot of swear words I found it under William Shakespeare’s "Romeo and Juliet" my current topic for English.
"Hello?" I grumbled.
"Hey grumpy, how you going?" Gina asked.
"Oh hey, good just trying to figure out a stupid assignment. You?"
"oh I’m good, fine, great…"
"What Gina?"
I could always tell when she wanted information.
"Did you catch up with Derek?" She said it so fast I almost missed what she said.
"Yes."
"AND? You expect me to hang on yes? Tell me all!"
"You really don’t wanna know!"
"Oh hell yes I do, spill I want to know everything and don’t you dear leave anything out!"
"Okay you asked…"
It didn’t take me long but by the time I was finished there was complete silence on the other end of the phone and for the second time that day Gina said,
"Wow."
"Yeah I know, I don’t know what to do."
"Duh you egg text him!"
"No Gina this is a road going no where there is no point!"
"Elizabeth Brennan do you like him? I mean do you really really like him?"
"I don’t know! I havnt ever given it much thought." God I was so confused!
"well give it some thought RIGHT NOW! On the phone with me me right now this very second do you Elizabeth Brennan feel something for Derek Crombie?"

This was hard, when I kissed him there was something there, I thought. There was passion, but is that enough? Did I really want to find out and take it further?
"Look," Gina said after waiting for me to answer "it can’t hurt to just text him regardless of how you feel, you never know it may just make you less confused!"
She had a good point. After talking for another 30 minutes about normal stuff we hung up. Chewing my nail I stared at my cellphone wishing that Derek had my number instead so he could make the first move. What the hell would I say? Realizing my thoughts were taking me nowhere I tried to focus on my essay but every few lines I would glance back at my phone.
"Oh for god’s sake!" I said to myself.
I grabbed my phone and punched in Derek’s number on the text line, then stopped shit what the hell would I say? I figured you couldn’t go wrong with "hi" so I sent it. Then immediately regretted it. Way to go Brennan, I thought way to tell someone who you have had a serious make out session with, who you may have really deep feelings for "hi", you’ll win big points there. A few seconds after I had sent it though my phone did that "beep beep" sound and I froze. Oh god I thought, here we go. I picked up the phone and opened the message.
Derek: hey beautiful, hows your night going?
Okay I thought neutral topic that’s safe. Then with horror I realized I hadn’t said that it was me texting god so who did he think he was talking to? Did he call all the girls beautiful? I’m jealous I thought, we’re not even dating and I’m jealous oh shit. Shake it off Brennan, just act natural.

Lizzie: Sorry it’s Elizabeth.
There just tell him who I am and he’ll probably be like whoops sorry thought you were some other chick. "beep beep"
Derek: Yeah I know :S
Lizzie: How’d you know it was me?
Derek: Had your number in my phone, I was just about to text you I was getting worried you weren’t gunna text me at all.
Okay by this point I gave up all hope on finishing my homework and moved to my comfy chair in my room.
Lizzie: Huh? If you had my number why’d you give me your number? Why not just text me first?
Derek: Cause I wanted to see if you felt something too.
Lizzie" oh, okay.
Derek: Do you?
Lizzie: I dunno this has all kinda come out of nowhere Derek.
Derek: No it hasn’t I just got sick of keeping it inside. You mean a lot to me Lizzie and I’m sick of hiding it.
By this point my mouth was hanging open, what the hell do I say to THAT?
Derek: I know this may be a shock but I know you feel something you have to, I wasn’t alone in that kiss and there was something there.
Oh god now what do I do, I have no idea what to say to him. He is completely right, but do I tell him that?
Derek: Or maybe not then.
Oh to hell with it, I thought and I took the biggest leap I think I have ever made.
Lizzie: No you’re right.
Derek: I miss you, I wish I could see you.
Lizzie: what do you want from me Derek?
Derek: You. I want you. But I realize that this is coming very fast so why don’t we just take it slow start as friends.
My head was pounding and I felt like I was running in circles. I had to go for a walk and clear my head. Leaving my phone on the couch I put on a jacket and went outside. I kept thinking over and over again, what does this mean? And what the hell do I do?

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