Yesterday's Into Today's

Some nights
Are filled
By distant lights
To cast shadows cross my mind
As I seek to find
What love is
Or
Was meant to be
To someone such as me
That show how I missed my call
And somehow missed it all
While others found their joy.

Keeping company
I was only free
Of the hopes of a new tomorrow
And the sweetness of this night
That sometime,
Somewhere,
Somehow,
I might
Find not a light
to guide me
But a friend to warm me,
To love me as I am
Not for what I might have been
Or may even be,
For she accepts me
For what only she can see.

The nights are long and lonely,
The phone never rings,
I have lived and loved and lost
And now know the bitterness
Of defeat
When one can stand
Naked at the feet
Of mixed emotion,
Broken hopes,
Now fading dreams,
And it seems
Like only yesterday
Was just a better day.

The sun casts lengthy shadows
Across the sea of green
As baseballs fall untouched
The birds and children sing
In the twilight of the evening
As faded voices ring
Of love,
And hope,
And kindness,
Of laughter and of cheer
Round the dinner table,
Of lovers holding hands,
And neighbors swapping tales
On porches with broken doors
While finishing up the chores,
As shadows cross the streetlamp
With children heading home
Exhausted by another evening
Of playing in the shadows
That has now melted
As baths and beds are drawn,
And mother’s whisper a sacred song.

TVs dance with new shadows
Across the room
To bounce from curtains drawn
Everyone has a purpose,
Everyone has a song;
And I long
To be part of something
Besides an empty room
On a fading night in June
When my only shadows taunt,
Dance and play
To sing once more,
To sing to say
Wasn’t yesterday a better day?

There are no dancing shadows now
Just a dark room full of gloom
And a heartache full of sorrow
From another night in June
That offers no set beauty
With no promises to keep
But shadows talk loud enough
To say that I can’t sleep,
And I vow for never a tear
Will I ere shed again
But then I do,
For I need a friend.

So early in the morning
Before new shadows appear,
As I lay in bed and tremble in fear
Of what another day shall bring
When shadows climb the wall
Standing all so tall
Only to reunite and sing
That you have nothing at all;
I rise and walk to the meadow
And whisper with the dew
And wonder what will happen
If all of this I knew
Would I have lived to tell
To ask myself at night
Was it really worth the fight
If only yesterday
Would be the better day
Or yet another lonely night?