Why???

My life my heart is all in a big black hole, my head is full of blackness I couldn’t think of nothing else but to hurt myself, the way I always do ,why do we live if we live only in regrets and problems....I have no point of living if I live in regrets.....everytime I sit and think about everything that goes around me ....I always end up cuttin myself just so I can get rid of all of that......no expressions can describe the way I feel maybe being mad and havin black tears go down my face and feeling the blood going down my sliced veins will get rid of my problems.....sometimes I feel the need to kill me self just so I wouldn’t have to deal with regrets or problems or yelling from my mom all the time ....I feel the blood going down my arm and I sit there and cry because I know it hurts me but it takes all me pains and negative thinking away.....black tears always will be going down my face.....