Why Hurt Me With The Kisses?

My body is shaking... mixed feelings suffocate me...
Darkness once more, demons not gone...
They refuse to let me go..
Promised I won't bleed again...
For the sake of my friends...
The knife is calling my name, again and again...
My mind is telling me not to give up..
I have to, I want to..
But I know I can't... My life is hell...
Is it true you have done that stuff?
Please say it's not...
Crimson rivers rush into my mind...
You and her is all I can see when I close my eyes...
I love you... I don't want to lose you...
But if this is how you're acting with me...
I'm gonna have to...