Why Did You Leave Me? Chapter 6

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My life sucked without Benny. I skipped school a lot, and stayed home crying and sleeping. My best friend was ice cream and I didn’t talk if I didn’t have to. People started saying stuff like, "Maybe she’s going crazy…" but I really didn’t care anymore.

Ryan kept his promise and tried to talk to Benny, but he wouldn’t listen to anything he said, which I was kind of glad for since Ryan really didn’t do anything wrong.

I called Benny at least 20 times a day even though he never picks up. In school, he tries to avoid me and ignores me when I’m talking to him.

Today I actually got up and went to school. As usual Ryan was faithful and tried to talk to me and make me feel better, even though I ignored him half the time. Today, I decided to wait for Benny after school and talk to him. I knew there was little hope if any, that he would actually listen.

The day went by fast, and it was already last period. When the bell rang, I got my stuff and waited by Benny’s locker.

When Benny saw me leaning on his locker, he just walked away. I caught up to him, outside in the parking lot.

"BENNY! WAIT, PLEASE! Just listen to me for a second!" I grabbed his arm, but he shook my hand off easily.

He spun around and faced me. He looked angry, and it scared the crap out of me.

"What.do.you.want?!" He spoke with his teeth clenched.

"I-I..need to talk to you." I whispered.

"Fine! Go ahead!" He threw his hands up in the air in exasperation.

"Look, I know you hate my guts right now, but please! Are you never going to forgive me? What about all those years of friendship?!" My voice cracked and the tears started to spill.

"I’m sorry for what I did. I know it was wrong, I just…I just want you back in my life, Benny." I whispered.

"You probably expect me to forgive you now, and just forget about what happened but I can’t do that, April." He started to walk away.

"NO! Wait, Benny!" I ran after him.

"What?" He sighed and turned around to look at me.
My heart was aching. My tears started to come faster and I couldn’t stop them.

"Does this mean you don’t love me anymore? Not even as a friend? Do I mean nothing to you now?" My voice was trembling and I was shaking, because I already knew the answer.

Benny looked away. "Don’t blame me. It was you. You were the one person I trusted, and you cheated on me. Damn it, April. What the hell do you want me to do?!" He walked away, just like Ryan. Leaving me crying. It was just as worse as losing Ryan.

‘Oh no…Not this again.’ I thought.

I don’t know how but I managed to get myself into the house. I just stood there in my room, crying.

I was crying because I lost Benny. I was crying because I lost Ryan. I was crying because it was all my fault. I was crying because I had a mom who didn’t care if I was alive or not. I just couldn’t stop crying.

At first, it was just tears, but later the sobs became louder and my heart felt like it was getting ripped. I fell to the ground and lied on my sides, holding my knees to myself. I thought dying was better than this. What was so great about living, when no one loved you anymore?

I needed my Ryan back. I needed my loving Benny back. I don't know how I'm going to survive now.

I just laid there, in the middle of my room, with an aching hole in my chest. Then I let myself think about Ryan. None of this would have happened if he didn't leave me.

"You didn't just break my heart, Ryan. You killed a part of it. A broken heart can be mended but something dead can't be healed..."

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