Who To Choose? Chapter Thirteen
Hey guys, I think this is going to be the last chapter! Sorry, but I felt it should just come to an end. However, I am going to re-start writing "Are You The One" so if you want to read the first 2 chapters of that, the third should be posted by the end of the week. Thank-you all for all of your support, it's meant so much. Comment :) xo
I drove to the waterfront as fast as I could with my mind racing like crazy. What was I going to say to him? Would he even listen? I needed to find him and just tell him everything I felt inside. I found a parking space and ran to the bar that rested against the river. I looked around inside and saw Zac sat on his own in the corner. I figured that Evan probably made some excuse so I could talk to him alone.
"Zac, I have something to tell you."
"Grace?" he looked up at me, astonished that I was there.
"Please, just listen to me. I have loved you from the first moment I saw you, I think I was 13. I learned how to handle my feelings but it didn't work. When you told me you loved me it scared me, because you were the one person that had the power to ruin me. So I sabotaged us and our chance to be together. I was scared because my feelings for you were so powerful and I didn't want to be a prisoner to how I felt about you. I love you, Zac. I love you so much and I'm sorry for everything I've done. I just hope that may be one day you'll be able to forgive me."
I looked at him and he just stared at me. I knew that my chance had gone. I walked away, hoping that may be he would follow me, but he didn't. My chance was over, I had blown a chance at happiness with possibly the love of my life. Why did I have to be such an idiot? I walked to my car, the tears falling thick and fast. I opened the door and sat in the driver's seat contemplating what my next move would be. Finally I decided that going home would be the best option. I drove slowly, concentrating solely on the road whilst trying to keep my mind off Zac. I pulled into the driveway and quickly checked my appearance in the mirror. I looked a mess, but my Mum would understand to leave me alone. I stepped out of the car and walked to the front of the house. I looked up at the door and stood there waiting for me was Zac.
"You drive slower than Miss Daisy," he smiled at me. How could he be so cool after I had just poured my heart out to him?
"What are you doing here?!" I asked, completely puzzled.
"Well, after you walked out before letting me speak earlier, I thought I'd better come here and tell you what I think."
"What do you think?" I questioned. I was so nervous, what was he going to say?
"Maybe we should go inside? It looks like it's going to rain..."
"No! Out here is fine. Just tell me." he looked at me, his eyes shining. Was he going to cry? No, absolutely not.
Only he did. And it was my fault. I made him break, I had torn him apart. What was wrong with me? Why would I do that to someone I love? It wasn't me that was the prisoner, it was him. I couldn't believe I had never noticed his feelings before; Zac had loved me, and I hoped that he still did. I stood there waiting for him to tell me what he wanted to say as the rain slowly began to fall from the sky. As the rain began to soak my clothes and hair he spoke.
"Grace, I don't have the power to ruin you, you have the power to kill me. You don't understand what I feel when I look at you. You've changed my life, you've taught me what it means to love someone. Fair enough, we didn't have the best of starts, but it taught me that life doesn't always go the way you want it to. And yes, for a time, you did kill me inside, you know that. I don't want you to feel bad, but there were days when I would just sit in bed staring at my ceiling and hoping you would come to me. I wanted you so badly. I needed you. You were like an addiction, a compulsion, something I needed regularly." he stopped to look me in the eye. The rain had now flattened his gorgeous curly brown hair and I desperately wanted to touch him but I knew he wanted to continue.
"If you couldn't see that I have loved you for years, then you really must be blind. The same goes for me, I never knew you loved me. I guess I was so blinded by how I felt that I thought someone like you would never be able to love me. Grace, you are the one I want, you are the one I need. The one I live for. I love you, you have no idea how much. I love you and no matter what you do to me or throw at me, nothing is going to change that." he finished and smiled at me, his tears mixing with the rain on his face. I just stared, I never knew he felt such powerful things. We really were meant to be for each other.
"Come here."
"What?" his brow furrowed.
"Come here." he stepped forward and I pulled him to me. He looked down at me and grinned. I wrapped my arms around his neck and finally, after years of waiting, I kissed the love of my life.
"Zac, I have something to tell you."
"Grace?" he looked up at me, astonished that I was there.
"Please, just listen to me. I have loved you from the first moment I saw you, I think I was 13. I learned how to handle my feelings but it didn't work. When you told me you loved me it scared me, because you were the one person that had the power to ruin me. So I sabotaged us and our chance to be together. I was scared because my feelings for you were so powerful and I didn't want to be a prisoner to how I felt about you. I love you, Zac. I love you so much and I'm sorry for everything I've done. I just hope that may be one day you'll be able to forgive me."
I looked at him and he just stared at me. I knew that my chance had gone. I walked away, hoping that may be he would follow me, but he didn't. My chance was over, I had blown a chance at happiness with possibly the love of my life. Why did I have to be such an idiot? I walked to my car, the tears falling thick and fast. I opened the door and sat in the driver's seat contemplating what my next move would be. Finally I decided that going home would be the best option. I drove slowly, concentrating solely on the road whilst trying to keep my mind off Zac. I pulled into the driveway and quickly checked my appearance in the mirror. I looked a mess, but my Mum would understand to leave me alone. I stepped out of the car and walked to the front of the house. I looked up at the door and stood there waiting for me was Zac.
"You drive slower than Miss Daisy," he smiled at me. How could he be so cool after I had just poured my heart out to him?
"What are you doing here?!" I asked, completely puzzled.
"Well, after you walked out before letting me speak earlier, I thought I'd better come here and tell you what I think."
"What do you think?" I questioned. I was so nervous, what was he going to say?
"Maybe we should go inside? It looks like it's going to rain..."
"No! Out here is fine. Just tell me." he looked at me, his eyes shining. Was he going to cry? No, absolutely not.
Only he did. And it was my fault. I made him break, I had torn him apart. What was wrong with me? Why would I do that to someone I love? It wasn't me that was the prisoner, it was him. I couldn't believe I had never noticed his feelings before; Zac had loved me, and I hoped that he still did. I stood there waiting for him to tell me what he wanted to say as the rain slowly began to fall from the sky. As the rain began to soak my clothes and hair he spoke.
"Grace, I don't have the power to ruin you, you have the power to kill me. You don't understand what I feel when I look at you. You've changed my life, you've taught me what it means to love someone. Fair enough, we didn't have the best of starts, but it taught me that life doesn't always go the way you want it to. And yes, for a time, you did kill me inside, you know that. I don't want you to feel bad, but there were days when I would just sit in bed staring at my ceiling and hoping you would come to me. I wanted you so badly. I needed you. You were like an addiction, a compulsion, something I needed regularly." he stopped to look me in the eye. The rain had now flattened his gorgeous curly brown hair and I desperately wanted to touch him but I knew he wanted to continue.
"If you couldn't see that I have loved you for years, then you really must be blind. The same goes for me, I never knew you loved me. I guess I was so blinded by how I felt that I thought someone like you would never be able to love me. Grace, you are the one I want, you are the one I need. The one I live for. I love you, you have no idea how much. I love you and no matter what you do to me or throw at me, nothing is going to change that." he finished and smiled at me, his tears mixing with the rain on his face. I just stared, I never knew he felt such powerful things. We really were meant to be for each other.
"Come here."
"What?" his brow furrowed.
"Come here." he stepped forward and I pulled him to me. He looked down at me and grinned. I wrapped my arms around his neck and finally, after years of waiting, I kissed the love of my life.
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