Whispered Dreams - Chapter 9 FLASHBACK!!

Zoey's point of view
Woah!! Where did that come from? I just yelled at Jake. I don't yell at anyone. Yelling's not my thing. But I guess I was just way too mad that Jake was so damn blind. Was he that stupid or was he just trying to block it out? I'm pretty sure I don't do a great job at hiding my feelings, Mel, Rick, Sarah, Brit, hell even Danny could clearly see that I was in love with him, why couldn't Jake see it?

We yelled at each other for I don't know how long. Jake was clearly clueless about the whole thing. He blames Sarah for everything. Little does he know that he is to blame or maybe not, maybe I was to blame? Anyway, I surrender; I'm just so tired of ignoring the people I care, especially Jake. Maybe I should just confess it?

Then I remembered what Danny told me earlier. He was here to meet me and maybe even comfort me. He clearly saw that I had company. From the way he looked I could tell that he knew I was totally lost and agonized about the conversation I was about to have before he had my attention.

"Here's my number, call me if you need to talk,you know... after the wild talks are over" Danny had said handing me a paper.
Just as I was about to leave, Danny called over from his shoulder and said, "you know, Zoey nothing is worth hurting yourself... you can save yourself from all the hurt you are getting"

I have no clue if Danny knew what this was all about. But as I moved to the swing his words kept creeping up my mind "you can save yourself". Did he want me to lie? Of course not... Danny doesn't know what he's talking about but strangely I knew what I would do next.

I looked up at Jake and he was looking towards me but not at me. He was looking at the swing, the Pandora swing (whatever that meant). He was lost in his thought. If he wasn't angry I would have been surer that he was thinking about the past.

~FLASHBACK ~

February 14, the famous Valentines Day was becoming one of the worst day of my life. Brad and I had broken up about two weeks ago (beginning of 11th grade) and the departing words he chose to say was more than hurtful.
He said, "You know Zoey, you can act all innocent and blame it on the situation but you brought this on us. I loved you Zoey, I wanted a future with you but it was never like that for you. You never loved me back the way I loved you. And now I see... You can't love anyone...you're just cold"

The day was hectic, series of guys asked me to be their valentines and I rejected them without hesitation repeatedly, which only made Brad's word seem truer. I don't think I even said 'sorry' or 'thank you' to those guys , I'm not even sure I smiled. Maybe I am a cold-hearted bitch.

I was sitting on the swing feeling so wretched. There were tear drops on my jeans making it a shade darker where they had dropped.

And then I turned my head up feeling someone's stare boring at me, Jake was standing there. He had no expression in his face. He came to sit by me and again held me like he had a couple of months ago.

"So what is this pretty thing doing sitting alone in the auspicious valentine day huh? "

"Umm.. trying to make myself believe that I'm not some cold-hearted bitch" I admitted.

"Brad?"

"Maybe he was right... maybe I don't know how to love a person... correctly"

"Whatever Zoey... I think everyone is capable of love, it depends on the relationship you are in...love is wrong, most times, but it's supposed to make things feel right even though they are wrong"

I pondered on that for a while. And he chuckled onto my hair and said, "You know... if you tell that I just gave you a lovey-dovey-girly talk on love I'm so murdering you Zoey"

I smiled, "Don't worry your secrets safe with me"

"And if you want an exchange offer I won't publish your breakdown either, I know you hate crying in front of people."

"Thanks Jake, and as long as you comfort me, I can handle crying at least... in front of you... you know I could... get used to this" I admitted sheepishly.

"Oh god... you're in love with me... and now you're gonna turn into a drama queen crying over everything just to get my attention" he said pretending to be worried.

He was right about the first part but I smacked him. And we spent the great Feb. 14 as each others date; I'm pretty sure Jake had turned down almost three dozens of girls just to spend the day with me. I never stopped smiling after that.
~END OF FLASHBACK ~

Thinking about what Jake had said now, I know he was right. Breaking up with brad was wrong but it made me clear about the feelings for Jake and it felt right. Jake was right.

Funny how we're at the same place but only we were yelling at each other moments ago. I am not letting him outta my life, he's staying and I'm gonna make him stay even though just as a friend. I can't ignore them, ignore him anymore, I'm giving up!
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