Whispered Dreams - Chapter 19 MISSING PIECE

Jake's point of view

The missing feeling when I left Zoey to the door was inevitable, but seeing her stand there with that scared expression, I wanted to jump out the window. Her cheeks so red, her lips puffy... and... Jake shut up!

Everything happened in a blur after that... just when I let my hands fall down at my side; I felt Zoey's small body crashing onto mine. Her arms around my neck... Okay wasn't expecting that.

What is she doing?

I couldn't react in any way; my body had warmed up in almost an altering second. I looked down at her face, her eyes were forced shut and she was biting her lips too hard... I thought she would cut herself any moment now. She still looked different... I know she's pretty but today she looked... looked... beautiful. That was surely an understatement... but no time to search the vocabulary book.

I was enjoying the moment... busy staring at this beautiful girl in my arms, until she started losing her hold on me and getting lower and lower every second. My shorty can't reach my height... I almost smiled when I noticed her standing on her toes just to reach my shoulder. Well, she's slipping away... I couldn't have that...

Why would she hug me and then let go?

I raised my hands so fast and grabbed her tiny arms and stopped it right where it was. It felt like her arms belonged there, completing me in some way... I liked the feeling and dude... didn't want to let her go, she was my missing puzzle piece, she belonged there! She can't let go so damn easily!

But her face wasn't as close; she was leaning away from me facing the ground. I was curious as to what she would look like... I don't know... I wasn't expecting somebody else's face there but I just wanted to see her look at me.

I imagined what she would look like when she'd move her head up. I waited... she stayed there still. I leaned closer as my curiosity took the best of me, linked my forehead to hers, nudging it so that she'd look at me. I wanted her to look at me... and I wanted to see her look at me but she didn't.

When I nudged her head, her long blonde hair, still a little wet, fell to her face. She pulled it back, I, still waiting for her to look at me, placed a hand to her head. That's when she looked up at me.
She looked so fragile and so beautiful, so very beautiful. The small light of the room, made her pale skin look like they were glowing, but I wouldn't give the lighting's the credit for way she looked. Her eyes were glassy? Like an unconscious tear was about to fall... and her lips trembling a bit... I was amazed just how much I noticed her features in that one glance.

I noticed the silent tears in her eyes, her swollen lips with her tooth's mark etched on it, her neck moving as she took an uneven breath in, her feet twitching as I leaned down, her trembling arms threatening to lower once again. I moved her arms back around my neck making sure she wouldn't bring it down again.

Looking at this girl in front of me, she looked so fragile but still so right there. I felt like she'd fall into pieces if I let her go... and only I know how much I wanted to keep her... never let her go. It felt so right Zoey being in my arms that the entire freaking world didn't matter. Who cares? If you think this is a freak-show then I don't want decency... I want a bloody damn freak-show for my whole life... cheesy much Jake?

I leaned gently to touch her lips, as soon as I touched her warm lips with my not-so-warm lips. I felt myself twitching in anticipation and nervousness. I waited for Zoey to pull back, yell at me and throw a lamp at me or something. But nothing happened... she shivered in the contact never leaving her hands around my neck or moving her lips from mine.

Look... I'm a great kisser... an amazing one... what can I say I am what I am. But with Zoey everything went outta window. I forgot every 'move', every 'experience' I had before this. It was like my first kiss ever even though it wasn't.

I couldn't make myself aggressive, it was crazy the way I felt. All my desires were mixed up... I wanted to kiss her and never let her go, but I wasn't sure if I should be aggressive with her, I wanted to push her to the door but I wanted to be gentle with her. My mind was in a verge of exploding... I am thinking of making out with my freaking best friend. This is crazy! But was it? It felt so damn right. Shouldn't it feel wrong?

Who the fucking hell cares?

I started moving my lips to hers, still debating with aggression or gentleness. But when she moved her lips with mine, my noisy head went into a complete mute mode. All I heard was Zo breathing in the gaps, she taking in an uneven breath; it was this amazing sound that made my hands twitch to do something more, to grab her hair or something like that.

But then I felt her lips leave while we were kissing. Whoa... does she hate me now? Fuck... this is gonna be bad... damn bad. I hesitantly parted my lips from hers.

Her face was so cute... she was closing her eyes not forced anymore, like she'd been kissing and actually enjoying it ...her lips still was formed in a pout, almost smiling. That sight was so... so... attracting... so magnetic. I was pulled to her lips lightly like I had no control of my own.

I would've deepened the kiss this time, but then I heard footsteps.

"Jake... are you there? Jake..." I heard a voice.

Fuck! Annie! Shit! She's... my girlfriend and she's here? Fuck it!
I didn't want to budge from the place I was in with Zoey's arms wrapped around me, even if my girlfriend was about to barge in. Seriously... I really don't care.

But then Zoey dropped her arms around me and pushed me out the door without a fucking word. What the hell! I was about to go back but...

"Jake... what are you doing here? Are you okay? You look flushed baby." Annie said clearly worried about me.

I couldn't answer, I was burning with rage. Why did Zoey just push me out the door? What the fuck is she thinking?

"Babe... you okay? What were you doing here? I thought you left me alone there..."

"Umm... No... umm Zoey and I..."I didn't know what to say.

But I didn't want to keep any secrets or anything. Only one thing was clear in my head, I wanted to be back there with Zoey.

"Hey... Annie... umm.. Jake was just helping me... I just puked"

I snapped my head around to face Zoey. Did she just say that? I just puked?

"Oh my god... what happened you okay, Zoey?"

Annie and Zoey probably talked about something... I couldn't care less... I just stared at Zoey's face. I didn't know what to think... did she hate kissing me that bad? I looked at Zoey for another second. but she didn't even look at me. damn it!

I just left the house without a fucking care in the world, missing my missing puzzle piece that was so close in my arms a second ago.

The perfect night ruined... fucking great job Zoey!
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Okay I just realized thing! The chapter 17 is titled as chapter 15.. my fault! sorry Lucy!!
anyway, I really can handle criticism... I just want to make my writing better and believe it or not your comments really do help!

So I know this chapter ended in a bad mood, but I promise I won't leave you Jake-and-Zoey-less!! you know what to do!