Whispered Dreams - Chapter 10 TORTURE!!
Zoey's definition of torture...
Zoey's point of view
"Hey.... You there? Where did you go?" Jake's voice brought me back to earth.
I must have been daydreaming. Now I am sure what I am gonna do. I don't give a shit what happens; I'm not losing this guy again. I'm not letting anything come in between this. I'll just have to deal with it.
"Huh... what?"
"I thought I lost you there... where did you go?"
"Ohh... nothing"
"So.... I thought you were gonna ... you know explain... things..."
"Oh... yeah.. yeah..."
"I'm listening..."
"What do you want me to explain?" I sighed.
Tears fell down my eyes, I could never be this comfortable crying with anyone but Jake. I didn't bother to wipe them off, I was too eager for the round of questions to be fired at me. But the round never came and all there was silent. I was so scared to even look at him. Maybe he decided he didn't want the explanation, maybe he understood that it was worth nothing. Maybe he...
My train of thought came to an abrupt thud, and after that my mind went blank. Jake lifted my face so that he could look at my face.
He wiped my tears for me. All the anger, all the hatred between us before .... POOF... vanished in the air. He had understanding written all over his face, even though he didn't understand anything, he was willing to try. I wanted to confess everything right then and there but I waited for his question that I requested for. As if on clue he asked his first question completely taking me by surprise.
"Why are you crying Zoey?"
This one was easy. This one I could give a completely honest answer.
"I am scared... I am scared that I am going to lose you Jake.Its torture Jake, I am so scared that we can never be friends again, that Mel and Rick won't ever talk to me again, that I am a bad sister, a bad friend, a bad person all in all. I am just so scared." I said that all in one breath.
"Breathe... Zoey... you can never lose something that's yours... and something that you want and love... you do remember that you're the one pushing us off your life not us, right?"
I just nodded.
"So why are you pushing us off your life? I know you are incapable of ignoring people you love... and I know you love us... so all I'm asking is why? And believe me Zoey, no reason in this world is enough to make us end our friendship"
Oh yeah?? I have a pretty good reason in my head Jake... believe me I do.
"I'm just tired..."
"Of what?"
"Tired of being the third girl Jake... whenever you or Rick end a relationship with a girl, she attacks me first" Jake opened his mouth to protest but I cut him off.
"You know its true... Sarah is not the first chick who pointed a finger at me... not the first chick who insulted me in public...not the first chick who accused me. And don't even get me started with Mel... most of the trouble she has with her boyfriends usually revolves around me. Mel's always been kind enough to shove it off the rug, and pretend nothing of it, but I'm just so damn tired of being the breaking point of the group. I don't like it Jake... I hate it..."
Jake laughed... okay understatement of the year! He gave me a demo of the term ROFL. He literally dropped on the ground rolling on the ground.
"Happy much??" I asked
"Zoey... sorry... but that is the most hilarious excuse in the world... now come on, give me the real deal..."
"What the fuck dude? I just poured my heart out to you and you ask for a better pouring? Man I hate you... just get the hell out of here... I'm ignoring you for the rest of my life!" I yelled.
"Okay, you're serious... I've got a simple solution.... Don't give a shit about it... these shit happen because you're an amazing person... and you're just awesome. Haven't you ever heard 'haters make you famous'? Look you just need to find more people who is on your level, who could make you understand that you are too precious to give a shit about anything. "He said.
"Or maybe you know keep your mind off things... keep you busy" he winked pouting his lips to pretend about a kiss.
I just smiled because without even knowing what was on my mind he knew exactly what I needed. Someone on my level, someone exactly like him... I needed him.
Okay I lied about all the bullshit, Jake even caught it. But I can't tell him the truth; I won't dare lose him once again. I won't dare take him; take Mel and Rick outta my life once again. No freaking way...
Call me stupid as you may... but my love is not strong enough for me to let him go. I won't risk my precious friendship with Jake just so I could relieve my misery. I will torture myself for the sheer pleasure of his company, even though just as a friend.
There can be no bigger torture than watching your friends going farther away from you just because of a stupid mistake or even at the false distance if you're thinking of Mel and Rick.
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I posted the chapter 9 &10 together... hope you enjoyed it... and you seriously thought that I would let Zoey and Jake together this fast.... ha..ha you've gotta wait for it!! I'm still working on that.... and you know I don't mind some love for the story!! comments are love!! let me know what you think!! thanks!!
"Hey.... You there? Where did you go?" Jake's voice brought me back to earth.
I must have been daydreaming. Now I am sure what I am gonna do. I don't give a shit what happens; I'm not losing this guy again. I'm not letting anything come in between this. I'll just have to deal with it.
"Huh... what?"
"I thought I lost you there... where did you go?"
"Ohh... nothing"
"So.... I thought you were gonna ... you know explain... things..."
"Oh... yeah.. yeah..."
"I'm listening..."
"What do you want me to explain?" I sighed.
Tears fell down my eyes, I could never be this comfortable crying with anyone but Jake. I didn't bother to wipe them off, I was too eager for the round of questions to be fired at me. But the round never came and all there was silent. I was so scared to even look at him. Maybe he decided he didn't want the explanation, maybe he understood that it was worth nothing. Maybe he...
My train of thought came to an abrupt thud, and after that my mind went blank. Jake lifted my face so that he could look at my face.
He wiped my tears for me. All the anger, all the hatred between us before .... POOF... vanished in the air. He had understanding written all over his face, even though he didn't understand anything, he was willing to try. I wanted to confess everything right then and there but I waited for his question that I requested for. As if on clue he asked his first question completely taking me by surprise.
"Why are you crying Zoey?"
This one was easy. This one I could give a completely honest answer.
"I am scared... I am scared that I am going to lose you Jake.Its torture Jake, I am so scared that we can never be friends again, that Mel and Rick won't ever talk to me again, that I am a bad sister, a bad friend, a bad person all in all. I am just so scared." I said that all in one breath.
"Breathe... Zoey... you can never lose something that's yours... and something that you want and love... you do remember that you're the one pushing us off your life not us, right?"
I just nodded.
"So why are you pushing us off your life? I know you are incapable of ignoring people you love... and I know you love us... so all I'm asking is why? And believe me Zoey, no reason in this world is enough to make us end our friendship"
Oh yeah?? I have a pretty good reason in my head Jake... believe me I do.
"I'm just tired..."
"Of what?"
"Tired of being the third girl Jake... whenever you or Rick end a relationship with a girl, she attacks me first" Jake opened his mouth to protest but I cut him off.
"You know its true... Sarah is not the first chick who pointed a finger at me... not the first chick who insulted me in public...not the first chick who accused me. And don't even get me started with Mel... most of the trouble she has with her boyfriends usually revolves around me. Mel's always been kind enough to shove it off the rug, and pretend nothing of it, but I'm just so damn tired of being the breaking point of the group. I don't like it Jake... I hate it..."
Jake laughed... okay understatement of the year! He gave me a demo of the term ROFL. He literally dropped on the ground rolling on the ground.
"Happy much??" I asked
"Zoey... sorry... but that is the most hilarious excuse in the world... now come on, give me the real deal..."
"What the fuck dude? I just poured my heart out to you and you ask for a better pouring? Man I hate you... just get the hell out of here... I'm ignoring you for the rest of my life!" I yelled.
"Okay, you're serious... I've got a simple solution.... Don't give a shit about it... these shit happen because you're an amazing person... and you're just awesome. Haven't you ever heard 'haters make you famous'? Look you just need to find more people who is on your level, who could make you understand that you are too precious to give a shit about anything. "He said.
"Or maybe you know keep your mind off things... keep you busy" he winked pouting his lips to pretend about a kiss.
I just smiled because without even knowing what was on my mind he knew exactly what I needed. Someone on my level, someone exactly like him... I needed him.
Okay I lied about all the bullshit, Jake even caught it. But I can't tell him the truth; I won't dare lose him once again. I won't dare take him; take Mel and Rick outta my life once again. No freaking way...
Call me stupid as you may... but my love is not strong enough for me to let him go. I won't risk my precious friendship with Jake just so I could relieve my misery. I will torture myself for the sheer pleasure of his company, even though just as a friend.
There can be no bigger torture than watching your friends going farther away from you just because of a stupid mistake or even at the false distance if you're thinking of Mel and Rick.
---------
I posted the chapter 9 &10 together... hope you enjoyed it... and you seriously thought that I would let Zoey and Jake together this fast.... ha..ha you've gotta wait for it!! I'm still working on that.... and you know I don't mind some love for the story!! comments are love!! let me know what you think!! thanks!!
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