Where Did You Go

What has happened to my life?
Everything has changed so fast!
I don't even know who I am anymore!
My life has been taken over,
By what I thought was my friend.

To find out that its to late,
He is already gone.
I never realized everything changes so fast
I never thought it would be this way
Not being able to be by his side,
not even when he's dyeing,
And it is all my fault,
That I can't be at his side.
The day that he finally goes
To a worse place the hell
To a worse place the jail
To a place where he can't hold his children ever again
And it is all my fault.
I'm sorry that it has to be this way.

What will it take for you to come back
I want to know
Whatever it is
I will do
To make it back like when I was two.

When you would kiss me good night
And say "Don't let the bad bugs bite."
I never thought I would miss that night
As much as I do tonight.

I want it to be like it was then again
Where I could give you a hug
And kiss you every night
every night.
I will do anything to get the old you back
And the old me.

I don't know when I changed
But I know that it was a mistake
I never thought I would turn out this way
But who ever does?

The very first night
I knew some thing was up
I don't know how
And I shure as hell don't no why
But whatever it was I did.

I was up all that night
Feeling like some thing was wrong
And that afternoon
I found out, that I, was right

You were found collapsed on the floor
With one collapsed lung
And the other full of fluid
With a temp of 88 degrees
Every one thought you were dead.

What could I have done
If I were home
If I didn't fuck up so much
I wonder if anything could have changed.
I feel like its my fault
That I wasn't there when I could have been
If I didn't fuck up so much.
If I didn't lie so much.
If I didn't cry so much
like a girl,
When I didn't get my way
I would be home
And not where I am tonight.
I could have helped you out
I could have got you help sooner
But instead I was here
Wishing I was there.

Mabie I couldn't have stopped it
But I no I could have helped it,
If I were there
You could be home right now.
But since I fucked up so much
And since I just didn't care
I couldn't be there
When you needed me the most.
I'm so sorry you were alone
On the floor
Collapsed in pain.