When You Have Everything, You Crave Nothing 19 FINALE!

Thank you all SO much for all your comments, esp. the repeat commentors, this is for you all. I love reading them and I hope I get loads for this final chapter!
Also, for my next story, I am willing to write what you want(how exciting!)-so give me ideas of what you want or like to read and I'll work off that, I aim to please!
Also, yes I know the lady had blonde hair, but it's a cute pic!
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I am getting very familiar and friendly with the staff onboard the planes to New York. They all smile at me knowing full well they are burning my bank balance. I'm even flying in economy as I'm not forking out thousands to fly top class, regardless of the warm beds, bubbly champagne, delicious food, beauty therapist...OK well that all would be nice!

As soon as I land I run straight to a toilet to throw up and I swear being pregnant is the worst feeling in the world. I'm all alone and have no one to comfort me when I'm throwing up my crappy lunch. Well, my baby has indeed got expensive taste. It takes after me I suppose!

As I come out of the loos, I only see Toby. We really do live in a small world. He spots me looking very pale and rushes to my side 'Saph, are you OK?'

I smile. He still cares about me-that's all I wanted to know 'Oh Toby! I've missed you' I throw my arms around him and say 'Please forgive me for everything bad I have done for you. I need your forgiveness. I am so sorry for causing you so much distress and really didn't mean to make you so upset and...' I start to cry and Toby rubs my back caringly and nods.

'Shh shh, calm down. Don't worry, Saph, I forgive you-of course I do. You look so pale, Saph.' He sits me down at a nearby bench and I say 'I'm pregnant, Toby.'

'Oh.'

'Yeah. It was a shock to me as well.'

'So, whose is it?'

'Rhys's.'

'Well, congratulations, Saph. I wish you both all the best.'

'Do you mean that?' Please mean that. I need Toby in my life as much as Rhys as a best friend to me. He is really important to me, regardless of what has happened.

He nods 'Of course I do.'

I hug Toby tighter and say 'Toby, I really do love you.'

He grins 'And I love you, Saph. So, about this baby, what does Rhys think?'

'He doesn't know yet. I've just come over from London to tell him. I hope he's going to be ok with it.'

'Well if he isn't, you let me know.' He teases. 'Do you love him though, Saph?'

I don't even have to think to answer that. 'I really do, Toby. I love him with all my heart.'

'He doesn't know how lucky he is.'

'I'll make sure he does.' I joke.

'Are you moving back over here or am I going to have to fly over to London to see my best friend's new baby?'

I grin broadly and say 'Either way, you are coming to see it.'

He nods 'I will. Do you want a lift to see Rhys then?'

'I would love one, but only if you drive slowly or I will be violently sick.'

'Nice.' Toby helps me up and kisses my cheek 'You're going to be a wonderful mom, Saphy.'

'I doubt it, but thanks.'

Finally, I have got back Toby who I so desperately need in my life. But now I have to go and see my lover and tell him the hopefully good news.

I go into his office and see Rhys busy at work. As I scan his office, I see he's put up a picture of us when he was in London with me and that nearly melts my heart. Bless him. I knock on the door and Rhys grins when he sees it's me.

'What are you doing here, babe?'

'At the end of our phone argument, you said I should be with the man I truly love didn't you?'

'Am I going to regret saying that?' He asks cautiously.

I shake my head 'No. Rhys, I love you. I know I've never truly told you or made you believe it, but I really do. I am completely in love with you. I want you and no one else. Rhys, you are so special to me and I've been in mourning ever since you left London. I need you in my life Rhys, please say you feel the same way.'

Rhys stands up from his chair and walks over to where I'm standing then holds my hands 'Saphy, I never thought this would happen but I'm so glad it has-I've always loved you Saphy. Always. You know that. From the day you opened your mouth and argued with me, I knew you had to be what every guy is searching for, his angel from up above. Babe, of course I feel the same way, nothing would make me change the way I feel for you. Nothing.'

'Really?'

He nods 'Really.' He kisses me slowly with his beautiful lips and I get all lightheaded from his beautiful smell wafting onto me.

He pulls the blinds down and sits back in his chair, taking my hand for me to follow. I do and straddle him as we continue to kiss at his chair-naughty naughty!

'Do you really mean that? Nothing will change your mind with being with me?' I ask again.

'Is something wrong, Saph?'

I look down at my stomach and say 'Oh God, Rhys, I'm pregnant.'

Rhys pulls away from me and I'm begging him not to freak out. 'Pregnant?' He says.

I nod.

Rhys looks at my tummy and back to my eyes 'Oh Saphy that is fantastic news!' Rhys pulls me into a warm, loving hug and says 'Really?' just to double check I'm not lying.

I nod 'Really. Are you sure you're ok with it?'

'Ok? Saphy, I am ecstatic-we're going to have a baby together, a mini-Wildman!' I giggle as he cups his hands around my tummy. 'Did you think I'd leave you if you told me?'

'I was worried as it's so soon since we've even met.'

Rhys affectionately strokes my cheek and says 'Saphy, you silly thing. I would never leave you, nothing could make me.'

'Nothing?' I probe mischievously.

'Nothing.' He assures me. He kisses me like the first time we kissed, passionately with love seeping through the it. 'I'll never let you down, Saphy. Regardless of the baby, I am here for you above anything else.'

And that's what I wanted to hear. That the baby didn't seal my fate with Rhys, but I did.

Rhys kisses my neck carefully as he says 'You know what, you have made me the luckiest man alive. I have the best girlfriend in the world and a baby on the way, what more could I ask for?'

'Nothing. I'm all you need.' I grin.

'Oh babe, you are more than what I need.' He kisses me again and says 'Saph, we're going to have a baby! We created this little thing inside you, you and me! Our little child.'
I nod 'We did and I couldn't be happier.'

We stay sat in that chair talking about our future together and what is to become of us. One thing we are certain of is under eight month's time, we will be a family of our own. The Wildman-Hudson's, the Hudson-Wildman's, well, maybe just Wildman's, Mrs. Wildman-I hear wedding bells, don't you!

Epilogue! Four Years On

I said I heard wedding bells, well, they weren't mine! Well not yet at least. I know, you really should have words with Rhys on that one. But I wasn't wrong about the bells, because today my two beautiful bundles of joy are going to be Christened.

As I wake up on a summer Sunday morning, I feel two hands wrap around my waist and the familiar 'Morning, Sunshine.' I roll over and give Rhys a warm kiss regardless of my morning breath.

'You stink of garlic, Saph.' Rhys says laughing.

'You love my stinky garlic breath, don't lie.'

Rhys smiles and kisses my nose 'I do.'

'Mummy!' I hear the whine of our eldest Ellie coming from her room.

'Ellie Belle, I'm coming.' I say as I pull the duvet back and leave the room. Rhys wolf whistles and I stick my finger up at him. As I go into her nursery, Ellie is standing up in her bed with arms stretched out 'I know.' I say. She giggles and says 'Party dress pease.'

'Yes, you can wear your dress later.' She snuggles her head into my shoulder and I go next door to pick up my other littl'un. 'Lucie.' I say gently standing over her cot. Lucy's eyes slowly open and she smiles at me-how precious.

I manage to juggle my girlies in each arm and go back to my bedroom where Rhys is sitting expectantly for the girls 'Morning gorgeous.' He says to them.

'Why thank you.' I joke.

He winks and takes Lucie from my arms as Ellie sits about telling me how much she can't wait for uncle Toby today. You see, Toby is going to be the girl's god father-he means so much to me I couldn't really give the honor to anyone else. Rhys was even happy to let Toby do the job, which means a lot. I think I've got the best of both worlds, a fantastic boyfriend and a wonderful best friend.

'Mom, toast please.'

'Ok, ok, just go and watch some TV as daddy and I get ready.' Ellie scurries off and I say 'I'm having a shower.'

'Is that an invitation to join you?' He smirks.

'If you're quick.' I tease.

Rhys manages to run Lucie back to her cot and then joins me in the shower for a quickie-shameful? No, it's about the only time I get time alone with Rhys. Yes we are parents to Ellie and Lucie, but before that, he is my boyfriend and I intend to have a relationship with him. As they say, a healthy sex life means a healthy relationship!

Because of that sexual liaison, Rhys and I are thoroughly behind with getting ready, so much so, the doorbell rings as we're getting changed. Rhys answers it and its Ella. 'Hey Saphy.' She calls out.

I quickly put my dress on and run out to see her. Ellie has already climbed up Ella's leg and Lucie is crawling around the floor. I think it's hilarious that both of my girls have American accents when their mom is pure English. I sat for a whole day teaching them English phrases but Rhys totally ruined that when he came home and started talking to them again!

'You look gorgeous, Saph.' Ella says.

'Hardly.' I say looking at my stick thin best friend.

'Yes you do.' Rhys says. 'Come on ladies, the service starts in twenty minutes.'

So we make a mad dash over to the Church where all of our friends and family are. My parents are not here, we never really patched the past up after what happened with Seany, and I know my mom would just use me for my kids and not for their daughter. But my brother Nick is here, he's the only one who talks to me, bless him, so he's come over as my family. As you probably want to know, Sean is happily married now, he didn't tell me that personally, but I found out from Nick. It does sadden me that I hurt him so much, so I'm really glad he has a happy ending too.

All of our friends smile when they see us and we go around kissing each and every one of them. Ellie runs over to Toby who looks immaculate in his suit. Toby picks Ellie up and tickles her before kissing my cheek 'You look beautiful, Saph.'

'Ah thanks.'

Toby, the ultimate sweetie pie! Well I'm sure you all want to know what happened to him. Well, he has got a wonderful girlfriend called Cassie who is so lovely. They are just the sweetest couple ever. It's true I could see myself marrying Toby, who couldn't, but he's not Rhys. I love Rhys despite his flaws and I know he's the One my heart is linked to. Cassie and Toby have been together for three years and he was telling me he is going to propose next month, so I am so happy and excited for him. We confide a lot in each other, and he is an angel with Ellie and Lucie. He looks after them now and again to give me a break-which I so need. I never knew being a mom would be so draining!

Cassie tickles Ellie who loves the attention, little diva, as I go and thank my brother for coming and also kiss my amazing parent in laws. Rhys has such a great family, he's got a sister who had her baby at the same time as Ellie, so we're pretty close. We tease that her Harry is going to marry Ellie. Ellie, however, is like her mother and has all the boys running after her! Haha, what a child I have!

Trixie, Fearne, Olivia, Hayden, Dianne and Calvin are here too. Note Viola is not here, I forbid her to come after Rhys's brief encounter with her. 'Look at you two!' They all say as Rhys wraps his arms around my waist, kissing behind my ear. 'So happy in love.' Dianne says.

And that we are. As we take our seat, Lucie gets passed back to me as Ellie sits happily on Rhys's lap...

The service was beautiful, I'm not s devout Christian, but I do love a good service. I ended up crying as Toby and Ella take their pledges to be our girl's god-parents. After the service,
we all go outside for pictures, Rhys and I stand proudly in between our family and friends with Ellie grinning for the camera's. 'Mummy, do I look pretty?'

I giggle 'Oh darling you look very pretty.' I can't believe I ever doubted having Ellie because she has made my world. She is a little angel and despite the really tough first few months with post-natal depression with her, I am the happiest I have ever been, being a mom to Ellie and Lucie.

'Saphy,' Rhys says as I walk away

'What Romeo?' I tease.

Rhys takes my hand and says 'Saphy, you have made me the happiest man alive in these past few years. You really have made my life worthwhile. I love you so much Saph, you are an amazing mother to our girl's and an equal amazing girlfriend to me, but babe, I want you to be more than that.' Rhys gets down onto one knee with Lucie in one arm and Ellie by his side-both of them giggling as he says 'Saphy Hudson, will you do me the great honor and be my wife?' holding out a beautiful ring engulfed in a blue velvet box.

All my family and friends and everyone who I love are watching this and I grin broadly as I say 'Oh Rhys, of course I'll marry you!' I pull him up from the grass and kiss him with so much passion that I feel like I'm floating on cloud nine. The whole crowd applauds and cameras are flashing capturing the moment, I'm guessing he planned this.

Toby takes Lucie so Rhys can properly kiss me and I jump into his arms and he spins me around in the beautiful rose garden we are standing in 'I love you so much, Saph.'
'I love you too, Rhys. More than you will ever know.'

Ellie and Lucie sit clapping and Ellie says 'Can I be bridesmaid mummy?'

'Yes baby, of course you can!' I say picking her up.

Everyone looks at us and Toby says 'Congratulations to both of you.' Rhys and Toby grin and I ask 'Did everyone know?'

Rhys and Toby nod 'Everyone knew, they're all here for you.' Rhys says. I really do love that
man.

All of my friends and family come over and congratulate us both, with squeals of excitement on the girl's part all desperate to be bridesmaids whereas the men all tease Rhys about being tied to me for life. Rhys laughs and says 'When you're in love guys, the one thing you want to do is make it official and I can't wait to have Saphy as my wife.' What a soppy man he is!

This has to be the happiest day of my life, well, that is until the wedding day, and what a day that'll be...!