When We Failed Love, Forever...

I remember the day when we first met, and I saw a little something wiggle hurriedly in my heart. I curbed it, telling myself, this is nothing but a temporary attraction. My heart wouldn't listen, but I had learned to control it, or so I thought. A 'Hello' was all we exchanged, not knowing that this one word was going to grow into many more. Days passed and we met, again. I remember you stealing that glance through the rear view mirror, and I remember my heart giving me that kick again. I ordered my brain to kick it back.

Months passed and you went away, leaving no chance for me to follow you. Did I want to? Maybe yes. Then we met again, this time to grow much closer. Reading through our chats and text messages became a habit. After all, I slept smiling at them every night. From strangers who exchanged just greetings and those secret glances, we became each others' support. Somewhere in between, I got addicted to you. This I knew, was an addiction I couldn't entrust. It was my dark secret, one that would stay with me, only. I'd seen the withdrawal symptoms of this one before, I decided to take the risk.

You came back and we met again. I had met you just twice, but here I was risking my life and seeing you in the night. I had never risked so much, but I wanted to take that risk, like it was the sole purpose of my existence. Standing by the railway tracks, I felt something I had never felt before. A feeling so pure, so true - so magical. I realized something that day; I had met the person I wanted to be with. I questioned myself whether I was in love, not knowing that it had happened, the very first time our eyes had met.

Years passed and I failed to give this beautiful connection a name. I failed to realize the importance of what we shared. I made my mistakes, you made yours. We saw some ups and some dangerous downs. Just when I was ready to make this happen, you told me otherwise. I stayed, just as I was, just as I am, even today. We knew we couldn't stay apart, and we never tried to. We were together, in every breath we inhaled. I knew this was meant to be. The option to leave, was considered by both, only to get back the next minute confessing undying attachment.

Years passed again, and we finally got together. We saw some beautiful days, which will be one of the most precious memories in my life. Living in two different cities, with miles separating us, times did get shaky, only to prepare us for what lay ahead. I remember writing a letter to you everyday, trying my best not to miss you, and at the same time, to keep the magic going. Not a day passed, where I did not long to be with you. Yes, it was difficult but the hope, of being together one day, kept me going.

Finally, the day arrived, when we would finally be together. I remember counting the days, everyday being an actual test of time. But, nothing mattered now. You were here and I had nothing to worry about. I knew this love wouldn't fail me for I had lived for it. I felt safe for the first time in my years. I knew I had someone; someone I can always run to. I remember how fairy tales told us endless stories of the prince saving the princess from all physical and emotional hardships. Mine ended, the day you stepped in this city - or hadn't they?

Today, it's been 5 years. I ask God the fate of this relationship. I know I cannot leave, but I also know I cannot stay - this is the sad truth of my life. I shall leave this relationship physically, but I shall remain a part of it, till eternity. If ever you need me, I will be there like I have always been. You will see me, when your heart is clear of all doubts. One day, you will realize, the love hadn't failed us; we had failed it. But that day I would've walked on, to never come back.