When Sparks Fly...Chapter 27

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VICTORIA’S P.O.V

My hand instantly grasp where my heart is and I push tightly against my rib cage as I feel it thumping and thumping louder and faster than ever before. I turn away from watching them kiss, get up and walk on. I can’t look back. I can’t see them kiss. I can’t watch their exchange of love. I can’t stay here.

My heart feels like it is slowly dying and it feels so hard to move, I feel breathless and panicking and feel like a panic attack is coming on.

I then start to run. What else can I do? I need to get away from here. I can’t stay here any longer. I need to go home.

I rush across town back to the train station, pushing past people, dodging cars and running onto the platform and onto the train. I quickly find myself a seat when the whole event really hits me.

Caesar’s cheated on me.

I can’t even deny that fact as much as I want to. I really want to.

I bite my bottom lip and close my eyes as they start to feel heavy, but all I can see are images of them kissing, of her moving onto his lap and her scrunching his luscious hair between her perfectly manicured fingers.

How could he?

I lean back on the stiff chair and feel myself slipping away.

The train then starts to pull out of the station and I look back at where the incident occurred.

I feel tears slide from my eyes and drip down my face, leaving a faint black line from my mascara and it just sums me up; my dark, black, emotional mood.

‘Would you like a tissue?’ A lady asks me from across the carriage. I nod and accept it and gently wipe the dark tears away.

How could he do this to me? Do I mean that little to him? Doesn’t he know how much I love him? He loved me this morning, so what happened? How could he just mess with my mind like that?

He knew he was going to kiss her, that’s why he didn’t want me there. My mind starts reeling off possible ideas and questions and I feel myself getting physically weaker and weaker as I think on what happened.

I never knew love could be this heartbreaking.

What am I going to do?

CAESAR’S P.O.V

As Abbie moves herself closer to my chest, running her hands through my hair, I realise what we’re doing ‘No, no, no, what the hell am I doing?!’

I quickly stand up, shoving Abbie off my lap and realise what I’ve just done for the past minute.

I’ve just kissed Abbie.

I’ve just cheated on Tor.

How could I?

Abbie looks up at me a little embarrassed and says a little confused ‘Are you ok, Caesar?’

‘Oh Abbie, what the hell have I done?’ I rub my forehead and find it hard to look at her, so I look away from the crime I have just committed. I stare off into the distance and I feel so, so, so guilty. How could I have just done that to Tor? Tori of all people! Because it was more than just a kiss, it was a kiss that I began, a kiss with my ex, a kiss with the girl I was once in love with, a kiss reuniting the past, which should NEVER have happened.

‘Babe, what’s wrong?’ She asks in her soft, reassuring voice.

‘I never should have kissed you, Abbie.’ I say turning back to face her and seeing her vulnerably looking at me with a small frown.

She looks dejected and asks quietly ‘Why not?’

‘Shit Abbie, I have a girlfriend back home.’ I blurt out.

Abbie then jumps up and says ‘You what?’

‘I have a girlfriend.’ I repeat.

Abbie’s hand flies to her mouth and she says ‘OH MY GOD, CAESAR! I am so sorry! Oh goodness!’

I look at her shock ridden face and confess ‘Sorry? I was the one that started kissing you; I’m now the one who has now cheated on my girlfriend!’ I say in despair.

Abbie bites her bottom lip and gently pushes her hair back as she asks ‘Caesar, why didn’t you tell me you had a girlfriend?’

Why is everything going wrong right now? Why is it always my life that gets screwed up? I look at how helpless Abbie looks again and I swear if I see a tear I will start kissing her again. I can’t help it. I can’t let her cry. I caused her so much pain which she will never get over, I can’t make her cry again. God, kissing Abbie was the only way I could think of to help her and stop those evil tears, it felt so natural to just help her in that way, but look at what shit I’m in now! Why the hell did I start kissing her? Why? Why? WHY?! Why couldn’t I have just fucking hugged her?

I look at Abbie who is still waiting for me to admit that yes, I do have a girlfriend; a funny, quirky, beautiful, kind-hearted one at that.

‘When was I supposed to tell you, Abbie?’ I ask.

‘Oh, I don’t know, maybe before you started KISSING ME!’ She yells at me.

I sit on the bench and swear continually for a minute then say ‘I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, Abbie, I didn’t mean to kiss you.’

‘Well I should hope not too since you’re with someone else! You know how much I hate cheating, Caesar.’ She says crossly.

Yes I know. Abbie’s father cheated on her mum for two years when Abbie was 11, only two years because then his mistress found out she was pregnant and her dad left her mum for the leggy model he had fucked pregnant. She’s got a half sister she has never met and doesn’t intend to meet, because of her dad cheating on her mum. Abbie hates cheaters. She despises them. She won’t associate herself with them because it hurts her and reminds her of the broken family she came from. A lot like mine; I think that’s where we understand each other most.

But Abbie is too sweet; she’d NEVER want to be classed as the other woman, even if that is not the case. I’m not turning her into another girlfriend, that kiss was a mistake; a thoughtless, stupid mistake I thought could help heal her pain.

‘Well you didn’t cheat on anyone,’ I point out.

Abbie raises an eyebrow ‘Oh really, and what makes you so sure, Caesar?’

‘What? You’ve got a boyfriend?’

‘Hitting a nerve, am I?’ She glares.

‘Have you then?’ I ask. I can’t work out if she has or hasn’t.

Abbie looks down and shakes her head ‘No, I don’t, but if I did, I certainly wouldn’t be snogging my ex.’

‘I didn’t intend to,’ I point out angrily.

‘Why then?’ She asks.

‘Because you looked like you needed cheering up. I thought it would stop you crying.’ I mumble.

Abbie laughs, and then sees I’m being deadly serious ‘Gosh, Caesar, what a way to mess with everyone’s minds.’

‘What do you mean ‘mess with everyone’s minds?’

Abbie shakes her head and says ‘It’s nothing, I just thought it meant more than that, but obviously I see it doesn’t because you have a girlfriend.’

My jaw drops ‘Abbie, what do you mean?’

‘Nothing, Caesar, I just thought you kissed me because, oh I don’t know, you wanted to or something. It doesn’t matter anyway, you’ve got a girlfriend and…’

Abbie trails off, but I ask ‘Did you want it to mean something?’

She shakes her head ‘Caesar, don’t go there.’

I bury my head in my hands and I am so bloody confused. How have I got caught up with two girls? How? I am never the one to get mixed up between two girls. Abbie rubs my back and now I’m wondering what the right thing to do is.

‘Did you want it to mean something?’ I ask as I turn towards her.

Abbie touches my cheek gently and gives me a small smile ‘No, Caesar, not seriously. I can never have you in that way again. Listen, we’re both not thinking straight, a lot has been said today, and I think we both got way too emotional, which is understandable, ok? Now don’t think you’re in love with me, because you’re not. You did love me Caesar, once, but you have moved on since then, I felt it in your kiss.’ She winks.

‘Do you love me?’ I ask her simply.

She nods with a grin ‘Of course I love you, I have never stopped loving you, but I’m not in love with you now. There’s a huge difference. I could never get back together with you properly, babe, I just couldn’t and neither could you. Anyway if you stayed here, it would only be a fling, we couldn’t get back together properly. We’ve both grown up a lot since then, you’re nearly 20 now, Caesar and you’ve moved on and have a new girlfriend.’

I highly doubt that I will still have Tori if I tell her what I’ve just done.

‘Tell me about her,’ Abbie asks, looking genuinely interested.

‘No I…’

‘Go on, tell me, Caesar.’ She nudges.

Abbie looks at me with a smile as she says ‘I’m really happy for you, Caesar. Honestly I am.’

I sit back down and say ‘Ok, her name is Victoria, but I call her Chick.’
Abbie grins ‘Why?’

‘Because it annoyed her when we first met.’

‘Which was?’

‘Our English class, she’s so intelligent, Abbie, and so enthusiastic about her work. She wants to work for a magazine or media industry. She’s tiny compared to you and she’s blonde too. She’s frets over the littlest things and is scared of heights, that’s when I started falling for her, when she couldn’t walk onto Brighton Pier, she grasped my hand so tightly that she didn’t let go. I made her feel safe and I loved that feeling of her wanting me to help her. She’s useless at directions and always gets lost. She loves to wear berets and is a control freak, but she’s so considerate. She’s one of the nicest people I have ever met. She is so sweet hearted and generous, Abs. I love her, I really love her, I am so in love with her that I know kissing you will end it for us because she’s so paranoid.’

I take a deep breath and say ‘She trusted me to come here today to see you, hell she even encouraged me to see you about what happened and look what I’ve done.’

‘Does she know then?’ Abbie says quietly.

I nod ‘About us, yes, I hope you don’t mind.’

She shrugs ‘She sounds lovely, Caesar.’

I take my phone out and show Abbie my screensaver of Tori sleeping and Abbie smiles ‘You really do love her, don’t you? Maybe more than me.’

I don’t argue that point because I know I do love Tori more than Abbie, without a doubt in my mind I know I’m in love with Tori more than anyone else could imagine. No one else compares to my Chick.

‘She’s amazing, Abbie. I am so proud when I see her. Every guy looks at her, but she’s oblivious, she only has eyes for me and look what I go and do!’ I feel my eyes start to tear up and I realise what a crap situation I have got myself in.

‘You didn’t want to kiss me, Caesar, you just felt you needed to. It wasn’t a love kiss, I know that and so will she when you explain it to her.’

‘She won’t see it like that, this is Tori, and she’ll think there was more to it.’

‘Well if you want, I can reassure her.’ Abbie offers.

‘I think she’d want to kill you if she saw you.’

Abbie giggles ‘Why?’

‘Because she’d be jealous.’

‘Of me? Oh that’s laughable.’ Abbie rolls her eyes and rests her head on my shoulder ‘She doesn’t need to be. We’re over and in the past and are simply friends again now, aren’t we? Come back and see me though, Caesar. Don’t be a stranger in my life anymore.’

‘If you’re sure, I don’t want to upset you every time you see me.’

‘It doesn’t upset me; it just reminds me of what we had, which was special and memorable.’

I run my hand through Abbie’s hair and sigh ‘Are you still friends with Ben, Ethan and Kerry?’

She nods ‘Yes, Ben and Kezza split up but are still really close; I think they’re going to get back together actually, I caught them having a really deep conversation the other day. He, why don’t I call them to come and meet you? I know they’ll want to.’

‘Um, only if they can.’

Abbie nods then stands up excitedly and walks off as she calls them. While she does this, I open my phone and look at pictures of Tor on my iphone. I really hope she understands if I tell her, but I’m questioning whether I should.

‘They’re on their way! They’re so excited, Caesar.’ Abbie says walking towards me. I stand up and open my arms to hug her and firmly hold her tight in my arms ‘Thanks for everything, Abs.’

‘Oh, it’s nothing.’

A few minutes later, we then see my three friends approaching me and I feel tears fill my eyes. I have missed them so much. These guys are my true friends, along with Mac. You know who your true friends are when you can go a year without talking and seeing them and still feel the same way around them.

‘OMG Caesar!’ Kerry yells across the park. Kerry is such a ditzy soul, bless her, she’s your hidden dumb blonde under her ruby red hair. She runs across the park and leaps into my arms, ever so slightly strangling me as she says ‘Where the hell did you disappear off to, mister!’

I laugh and put her down and she pinches my cheek ‘God, Caesar, you look so manly now!’

‘Do I?’

She nods ‘Yeah, don’t you think, Abs?’

She grins ‘I guess so.’

‘So, what do we owe this honour and why the hell did you leave us all and not tell us you were going?! Were we that bad?’

‘Don’t be daft, I just needed to get away.’

‘And why have you come back? To steal my Abbie’s heart again?’ She winks.

I shake my head ‘No, no, I’ve already got a girlfriend back at my new uni. She’s wonderful.’

‘Well she better be for you and for you not to want Abbie back.’

‘Ok, shut your mouth for a moment Kezza,’ My mate Ben says. ‘How are you, Caesar?’ He gives me a manly hug and I can’t believe how much Ben has changed. He’s filled out now with short, dark hair instead of his original dyed peroxide blonde incident.

I look at Ethan and he grins ‘You came then.’

I nod ‘Yeah.’

‘New girlfriend, hey? When you’re up here next time, you should come and meet my Darcy.’

‘She sounds posh.’

He laughs ‘That’s because she is, mate. Darcy Harrington-Miller. She’s a right laugh, though. But it’s not the same without our third guy here, you know.’

I look at Abbie and she holds Ethan’s hand ‘I agree, Ethan, but he’s happy where he is and is having a good life and I wouldn’t want him to give that up for us.’

‘How can you not love my Abbie?’ Kerry asks.

I smile ‘Kezza, you are so nosy you remind me of my girlfriend back home. I do love Abbie; I’m just not in love with her anymore.’

Abbie gives me a big beaming smile and says ‘We should let Caesar head off home. I’ve kept him long enough today.’

‘Promise you’ll come back?’ Kerry begs.

‘I promise.’

‘Let me take a picture of you all.’ Ethan says.

So Abbie, Kerry, Ben and I stand close together as Ethan snaps a picture on my iphone. I then give them all a hug goodbye, except Abbie who insists on seeing me off.

Once we get to the station and get my ticket, Abbie wipes her eyes and says ‘Oh God, I can’t believe I’m crying again. Don’t kiss me, I’ll be fine.’ She teases with a laugh.

‘It’s not funny, Abs.’ I point out with a smile. ‘Tori will seriously hate me for kissing you.’

‘Well, explain everything and it should be fine. Tell her I agree with her, if my boyfriend kissed his ex, I would not be best pleased.’

I lean back against the pillar and sigh, it’s hard leaving the place you once loved so much ‘Thanks for seeing me and talking through everything with me, Abs.’

‘It’s about time, hey?’ She teases ‘I’ll see you soon though, Caesar.’ She walks towards me and presses a firm kiss to my cheek and scrunches my hair up in her hands ‘I’ve always loved your hair, you know,’ she says with a grin.

‘Thanks, Abs.’ I say laughing. I give her one last, big hug and kiss her forehead before finally saying ‘Bye Abbie.’

As I step on the train, Abbie winks and says ‘See ya, babe.’

When I sit down on the train, Abbie pulls a funny face and I smile back at her. She is such a great girl, but nothing and no one now competes with Tori. Please let us be ok. I’ve done what she asked and have finally resolved things with Abbie; I just don’t know whether to tell her about that kiss.

Well, I have a good two hours to think on it…

VICTORIA’S P.O.V

‘Emily,’ I wail quietly in the hallway of my flat ‘Emily, Emily, EMILY!’ I scream out louder. I feel like I’m on the edge of falling, the edge of breaking down and the edge of sanity. What I saw today has totally tormented my mind-all I can see is him and her, kissing, her moving onto his lap, his arms curving around her tiny waist…I feel like I might be sick.

‘EMILY!’ I fall to the floor calling her name, when I hear Hayden say from above me ‘Tori, Tor its Hayden, Emily’s just gone out, what’s wrong? What’s happened to you?’ He bends down beside me and I cling to his shoulders and bury my head in the crook of his neck as I break down in tears. Hayden slouches against the wall and lets me grip onto him as the tears stream from my eyes. His strong arms wrap around me as he soothes ‘It’s ok, Tor.’ I feel one hand leave my back as he grabs his phone and calls Emily ‘Honey, get home now, something’s wrong with Tori. She needs you.’

Within five minutes, Emily bursts through the door and I turn to face her, my face red and puffy from crying and my voice hoarse from choking on the amount of crying I’ve done. She quickly falls to her knees and asks ‘Tor, what’s wrong sweetie?’ Her hand gently pushes my hair back behind my ears and she looks at me with a soft, warm look.

‘It’s Caesar,’ I begin.

‘What? Oh God, what’s wrong with him?’ She asks worriedly. ‘Is he hurt? Is he ok?’

This hurts me even more as I shake my head and say through stuttered words ‘He…he…he…he…cheated…on…me.’

And with that, all I hear is Emily say ‘How fucking dare he’ as I lean back onto Hayden’s soggy T-shirt and cry myself to sleep…
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