When Sparks Fly...Chapter 29

Hey everyone! Hope you like this chapter! Sorry if it seems like it's dragging on but I think I have a plan now! Thanks also for your amazing comments! I am so touched that you are so complimentary and kind, they are such a boost so I'm glad you like it! Please continue to and I hope you like!
Some responses...

IcEe CrEAMzz-haha, ahh, nah, I wish! I’m simply an amateur who has a way too overactive imagination! My ideas are just made up and it’s really down to the characters!
Laura-Beth-oh no! I’d break down if my computer was broken since I don’t have the internet on my phone! I can’t wait for the next chapter to be out soon! Mmm, Tori’s like that, she doesn’t like to seem weak and will only shout rather than give real emotion away-poor thing!
Amanda-the K is the K in the end of Chick-the k at the end of Chick would have a heart at the end of it-sorry, should have made it clearer!
Pia-oh gosh! Tears! I am so sorry! I’m sorry it’s so emotional! It’s incredible how I can make that happen! Thanks so much!
Cheyenne-no, it doesn’t offend me at all! I love Tori because she’s so like me! Haha! She’s such a complex character and I fell so awful for her with what Caesar did! Ahh thanks so much! I’m trying to get quicker so hopefully it’s working! I’m also kinda slow because I don’t know if I want the story to go on for a lot longer or only a little!
Ciriat-oohh indefinite amazes me! It’s so interesting to work on, even something as minor as a kiss has an impact on someone some way or another. I like make people rethink their opinions!
Emmily-haha, yeah, I’m a sucker for little romantic things like that-so adorable! And course I will, post a link and I’ll read it!

Phoebe-ahh, I’m so jealous! Ahh bless you! That’s really kind of you to say! Mmm, I have a very overactive mind and tbh they’re just normal everyday scenarios, don’t you think? Haha, I know, there’s a lot of emotion going on right now! I want her to realise too, but will she!
Sam-ahh thanks! Breathless or what! Yeah, Abbie’s a nice person, bad things do happen to good people and not every ex is horrible, even if we’d like them to be!
NamelyA-I have no idea what stage the stories in! I thought there was only going to be ten more chapters at chp18 but here we are! It depends, do you want it longer or shorter?!
Zeviyane-you have such a wonderful way with words! I’m so impressed and touched you think that about my random thoughts! Thank you so much for taking the time to write that to me! :D
Welsh and Proud-oh no, not tears! I’m so sorry! Haha, your bf was probably wondering what was wrong with you! Ahh thanks so much! I’m glad you like what I write!
Debs-hmm, I’m thinking he’d get the tattoo done on his neck or below his ear because Tori likes to be kissed on her neck! Haha!
Ms.T-ahh, I’m shocked you think my chapters are that good! Haha, you’ve suddenly made me married ‘Mrs Phoebe Gardens’ Lol! Yeah, you are a sucker for romance and Caesar’s charm, but he does adore Tori so he managed to get her to stay and all that jazz! :D
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I can’t sleep at Caesar’s. I’m not even sleepy. I should be tired and worn out from last night, but I’m not. I’m turning into some sort of insomniac zombie who can’t sleep. I look at the clock on his wall and sigh; 2.08am.

I look over my shoulder at Caesar who is still holding me and gently remove his arm from me. I so want us to work out and believe in everything he said to me last night; I just need to get away from him right now. I need to be alone in my thoughts and think through everything on my own, as we did not even delve properly into what happened yesterday, that was the tip of the iceberg yesterday, there is so much more to come, I can feel it. I couldn’t continue yesterday through tears. I hate breaking down in front of people, I hate being vulnerable, especially in front of Caesar. I don’t want to be crushed.

I sit up in his bed and quietly get changed into yesterday’s crinkled clothes that were thrown on the floor a few hours ago. I walk into his bathroom and look at my phone inbox to see who to call.

I need to get away from here.

I need to get away from Caesar.

I need time to think alone for a while, away from any influences and be totally away from my life here.

I feel myself turn into a child again as I call my brother Ryan up. I listen to the annoying tones of waiting for him to pick up when he says ‘Ciao Chica’

I sigh ‘Ryan, its Torrance.’

I hear Ryan sit up and ask worriedly ‘What is it, Torrance? Are you ok?’

‘Can you come and pick me up?’ I ask.

‘Why? What’s wrong? Are you ok?’

‘I just need you to come and pick me up.’

Ryan yawns ‘It’ll take me over an hour to drive there, Torrance, is there no one else you can all?’

‘I’ll wait.’ I offer.

Ryan chuckles and asks ‘Ok, where are you?’

‘Caesar’s,’ I trail off his address and Ryan agrees to get here as soon as possible.

I go back into Caesar’s room and see the sexy heartthrob dreamily sleeping and I feel myself start to cry.

I love him so much it hurts. He is always on my mind and I would do anything for him, just what I saw on Saturday, to me, is seriously hard to forgive. I want to talk more to Caesar, but I know it will end in tears and screaming. That’s just how we are. I’m feisty whereas Caesar is too laidback-we clash and sparks fly like fireworks with us.

I wish we were just like a normal couple, you know, the cute couple who go shopping together, the cute couple who lie about in parks kissing as their favourite past-time, and the cute couple who live a normal, simple, nice life, and don’t argue, not like us. We’re not normal by any definition of the sort.

I pick up Caesar’s notebook and trace my fingers over his possible tattoo and find myself grinning. He so would get it done as well. I can imagine him getting it done at the back of his neck.

I pick up a pencil from the floor and sit drawing Caesar to pass the time, with his toned torso poking out from under his messy covers and a stray leg spread out on his bed and his hair wild and curled over his pillow. He is just so sexy sometimes.

I tilt my head and kiss the top of the page where my remaining lip gloss comes off and sign it. It’s pretty good to be honest with my art skills. I check the time and Ryan should be here now.

I don’t know how long I’ll be gone for, but I know one way or another, it will change my life forever.

I look at Caesar one last time and quickly go over to him and kiss his forehead ‘See you, baby.’

I walk outside and see my brother in his mini and he waves at me. I open the door and sit in the passenger seat when Ryan asks ‘What’s up Torrance?’

I bite my lip then say ‘I’m coming home for a while.’

‘Why? Is uni over now?’ He asks switching the radio on.

‘No, but it’s half term next week so I won’t miss too much and I need to think a lot of things through.’

‘Are you sure you want to?’

I nod ‘Yes, just drive home, Ryan. Thanks for coming up here.’

‘S’all right. Have you told mum and dad you’re coming back?’

‘It was a rash decisions at 2 in the morning, Ry, so no, they don’t.’

Ryan laughs ‘Fair point. You look pretty rough, Torrance, what have you been up to?’

‘You don’t want to know.’

*
So we arrive back home at 4am and I still haven’t slept, but my lack of sleep doesn’t affect my pure joy to be back home and comforted by the warmth of my family home.

Ryan opens the door then says ‘Oh I forgot to mention, Ruby is staying at the moment.’

My jaw drops ‘Your childhood sweetheart Ruby? Since when?!’ I say ecstatically. I’ve always loved Ruby, but she was always more of a platonic friend to Ryan. Ryan wanted to sleep around whereas Ruby wanted commitment. Ruby outshines every one of Ryan’s exs. She’s intelligent, funny, witty and beautiful. She actually cared for Ryan, whereas the others only cared for his looks.

Ryan smiles ‘Well we met up again over New Years and she’s been staying over for a while.’

‘Are you two girlfriend and boyfriend again?’ I ask nosily.

‘You’ll have to ask Rubes that.’

‘Are you sleeping with her?’ I ask, raising an eyebrow

Ryan winks then says ‘Yep, so fingers crossed she’s up for being together, because I am.’ Ryan gives me a big smile and I give him a huge hug and say ‘I am so happy for you, I love Ruby and you two are just so perfect for each other!’

Ryan laughs ‘Yeah, she’s pretty special, bless her. Now go and get some sleep and we’ll talk to mum and dad in the morning.’

‘Thanks so much for picking me up, Ry.’

‘You’re my little sister, Torrance, I’d do anything for you.’

I grin ‘Thanks.’ Before walking back to my old bedroom and properly falling asleep.

I wake up at 8am I go downstairs in my slouchy pjs and see everyone is up in the kitchen.

My mum turns around and grins ‘Hello darling, come here.’ My mum opens her arms and I grin as she wraps her arms around me. My dad gives me big hug and kisses my forehead ‘It’s so good to have you back, Tori.’

‘Now your dad and I will be back home at 3ish so we can talk properly then, maybe you can catch up on some more sleep. Ryan, are you here today?’ My mum asks.

Ryan shakes his head ‘Nah, I’m working today, but Ruby is.’

Then in walks Ruby and she gives me a huge smile when she sees me ‘Hello Tor! Gosh you have changed so much! Look at you.’ Ruby comes over and gives me a big hug. ‘How have you been? Ryan’s been telling me you’re the star of the family, Ms Genius.’
I blush and Ruby giggles.

‘I’ve got to go, I’ll see you later gorgeous.’ Ryan says to Ruby. He comes over and kisses her lips and I beam at them both.

Ruby winks at me and I say ‘I am so happy for you two!’

Ruby has gorgeous long, black hair with big dazzling eyes and is the complete opposite to Ryan with his trademark looks of blonde hair and blue eyes. A lot like me and Caesar, I suppose.

Ruby laughs and rubs Ryan’s back ‘Mmm, so am I.’

Everyone soon rushes out of the door and Ruby and I are left to ourselves.

‘So why are you back then? I was a bit surprised to wake up at half 2 to see Ryan missing.’ She giggles.

‘Oh Ruby, everything is just falling apart in my life.’ I sigh.

‘Oh no, why?’

I lean back on the sofa and say ‘Men.’

Ruby nods ‘Oh don’t go there, warn yourself away, avoid at all costs, save your soul!’ She laughs and then adds ‘I’m joking, of course I am, I am extremely happy with your brother, guys are ok, some of the time. So what’s up with your love life then?’

‘Everything.’

‘How so?’

‘My boyfriend kissed his ex.’ I say simply, but it’s breaking my heart down to pieces every time I admit the ugly truth.

Ruby gasps and shakes her head ‘Hmm, that is never good, Tor. What did he have to say about it?’

‘Well when I told him I saw him he looked pretty shocked since I travelled all the way to Cardiff to watch them meet again.’

‘He went to see his ex? Why?’

‘Oh, they have a past together.’

Ruby pulls a face and asks ‘Is he your first boyfriend?’

I nod ‘Yeah, but even though he is, I am completely in love with him, just I don’t think it’s mutual. Like, I want to believe he loves me back as much, but for him to properly kiss his ex worries me. He loved her before me. She looked so happy to see him again it hurt, Ruby. Maybe she wants him back again?’

Ruby nods ‘I know, it’s like when I saw your brother kissing the school’s most popular girl, my world fell apart, we weren’t together or anything, I just felt so empty knowing that he was with someone else and being that intimate. I completely understand you.’

‘So how did you and Ryan get back together then?’

Ruby wrinkles her nose ‘We’ve been such good friends for ages, you know; as friends, then lovers as boyfriend and girlfriend, then friends again, but seeing him over New Years decided it for me, that I had to be with him again, thankfully, he felt the same way and asked me out and here we are today.’ Ruby pulls an ecstatic face and grins.

‘Are you official then?’ I ask.

Ruby goes all shy and shrugs ‘I hope so. Depends what he says, hey?’

‘I know he loves you, Ruby. He told me last night you were special and wanted you to be together properly again.’

Ruby ahhs, and sips her tea ‘Ahh Tor, did he really say that?’

I nod ‘Course he did. Ryan doesn’t go mushy often.’

Ruby laughs and touches my hand ‘So, was he apologetic then, your guy?’

‘Yes, after he denied telling me everything, but I just don’t know. You know I am paranoid, but I want us to work, he’s my first boyfriend, God Ruby, I want him to be my last. I adore him. I’d marry him right here and now because I love him so much.’

‘I thought that about past boyfriend though, honey. Like, ‘oh my God, I’ve met the One’ and I hadn’t. They were jerks and used me. Are you sure it was a one off with his ex?’

I’ve never thought about that. ‘Um, I hope so.’

‘Well, the way I see it, is you should let him do all the running and worrying and then you know you’ve got a gooden when they do that.’

‘Then why are you with my brother?’ I tease.

Ruby’s eyes go wide and she hits me over the head with a cushion ‘Cheeky cow, you are. Have you got any pictures of him?’

I nod and hand her my blackberry and sigh ‘It’s his birthday during the Feb half term.’

‘Oh really? Oh that is pretty crap for holding off for him.’

‘He confuses me so much, Ruby, he puzzles me so much. Like, how do you know he does actually love you? No one EVER knows really, it’s all about trust and stuff and belief.’

‘Do you trust him?’

‘At the moment, no.’

‘Oohh, this is a nice saucy picture of him.’ Ruby says looking down at my iphone.

I grab my phone and look down and see Caesar topless flexing his muscles. I bite my lip and feel all embarrassed.

‘What has he got of you on his phone, hey?’

‘Ruby!’ I say outraged but can’t help but giggle ‘I promise you, there is nothing on there that is bad.’

Ruby stands up and giggles ‘I warn you, don’t check your brother’s phone.’

‘Oh my God, what is on there?’ I ask shocked.

Ruby spins around and laughs ‘Just don’t look.’

‘Why do I know all the crazy sexed up people in the world?’

Ruby winks and opens the fridge for some food. ‘Shall we walk Bambi later on?’ She asks.

‘Where is Bambi?’ I ask.

‘In the garden, freaky dog.’ Ruby opens the back door and calls out ‘BAMBS!’

Then in runs my precious little muffin and she jumps up to see me ‘Hey beautiful! Mummy’s missed you!’

Bambi licks my face and I laugh. ‘Let me go and get changed and we’ll walk her.’

That’s one thing you can guarantee, your dog will always love you.

CAESAR’S P.O.V

The stupid blinds let streams of the winter light through to my room and the bright sunshine wakes me up as it’s starting to rise earlier and earlier as we make our way into the beginning of February.

I turn to the other side and see the bed is empty. I get up quickly and go through to the bathroom ‘Chick? Are you in there?’ I walk in and see she’s not.

I walk back out and into the kitchen and see she’s not there either. I walk into Mac’s room to see if she’s talking to him, but he’s face down asleep. I walk over and shake him awake and ask ‘Mac, have you see Tor?’

‘Piss off,’ Mac answers.

I pull his duvet away and Mac looks at me with a death glare ‘Salad, what the hell is wrong with you?!’

‘Where is Tor?’ I ask him loudly.

‘Why the hell would I know, you bastard? Give me my cover back!’ I give the grumpy man his cover back and call out ‘CHICK!’ only to have no reply.

Where is she?

I go back into my bedroom and notice my booklet has been left open. I pick it up and see she’s drawn a picture of me. I never knew she could draw so well. She’s even kissed the top of the page with her beautiful, full lips.

I pick my phone up to see if she’s called me, but nothing.

I call her phone and get no reply.

Please don’t say she’s ended it.

Dear God, please don’t let this be the end of us.

I quickly get into my jeans and a shirt wrapping a scarf around my neck as I run out of the door and get on my motorbike to drive around to Tor’s.

I’m there within minutes and knock on the door furiously only to be greeted by a less than impressed Emily stares at me.

‘Hey Emily, is Tor here?’

Emily evilly stares at me as she says ‘No, why?’

‘Um, I…’

‘Wait, you don’t know where she is?’ She asks worriedly. Emily comes up right close to me and says ‘Tell me you’re lying.’

‘Um,’

She then slaps my face and screams ‘I WILL KILL YOU CAESAR IF SHE’S MISSING!’

Emily is then thankfully restrained by Hayden, as I recoil away from her powerful hands as she begins to weep ‘TORI’S MISSING HAYDEN!’

‘What?’ He asks.

‘Caesar doesn’t know where Tori is!’ Emily exclaims.

Hayden looks at me and asks ‘What happened last night?’

‘Did she batter you for cheating on her?’ Emily asks angrily.

‘I didn’t mean to.’ I defend ‘It was a thoughtless mistake.’

‘One which makes you forget how bloody lucky you are to have Tori, then hurting her feelings, oh and CAUSING HER TO RUN AWAY!’

I look at how distressed Emily is and can only imagine that times a million the way Tori is feeling right now.

‘I don’t know where she is, Emily. She said nothing to me. We ended on a row, then you know, did it and I woke up this morning to find her gone.’

Emily walks back into her flat and grabs her phone to see if she’s called.

‘Why did you do it, Caesar? Do you still love your ex or something?’ Emily asks bluntly.

‘No, not at all. Abbie and I are over.’

‘Why did you kiss her then?’

‘There’s a lot more to us, Emily. I did it for those reasons.’

‘I really liked you, Caesar, I thought you were the perfect guy for my Tor to be with, but look what you go and do, and you screw it up like every other guy. Tori is special, Caesar, she means the world to me and for you to hurt her poor little heart like that is unforgivable. I hate you at the moment, Caesar. I hate you for what you’ve done to my friend.’

Emily looks like she’s about to cry and I realise that Tori doesn’t do emotion in front of me. She hates it. She’d rather scream at me than break down and tell me what she really thought of me, because if she was as blunt as Emily, I’m sure she would have said the exact same thing to me.

She probably hates me.

My sweetheart of a girlfriend hates me.

I bite my lip and run my hand through my hair and say ‘Where do you think she’ll be?’

‘My guess is she doesn’t want to see you, Caesar.’

‘Emily, I need to see her.’ I stress.

Emily moves closer and says ‘And I need you to get the hell away from my flat before I hit you again. Don’t come back here, Caesar.’

‘Emily, please help me, I want to make things right again with Tor.’

‘All you have done is made things wrong. I cannot tell you how much she loves you, Caesar. She lives for you. She completely adores you and you know how sensitive she is and you go and rub salt in the wound by kissing your ex girlfriend!’

‘We all make mistakes, Emily. God, I feel awful for what I did to Tor, but I am so sorry. I never intended for it to happen. I don’t feel that way for Abbie. I love Tor and only her.’

Emily swears at me and tuts ‘If she is hurt, Caesar, you will be so dead, I’m telling you.’

‘I get it.’ I then walk off and get back on my bike. I get how much I’ve hurt my girlfriend, all I’m asking for is help to find her.

But if Emily won’t help me find Tor, I’ll just do it myself.
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