When Sparks Fly...Chapter 30

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CAESAR’S P.O.V

I arrive back home shortly after my intense meeting with Emily and see Mac grabbing his bag to go to his lectures.

‘Are you not going in today?’ He asks me.

‘Tori is missing, so no, I’m not.’ I say angrily walking past him, chucking my leather jacket over the chair.

‘I’m sorry I shouted at you earlier on and called you a bastard, I was just grouchy and you know I like my sleep.’

Mac gives me a pout and I nod. ‘It’s ok, I understand. Have you got any ideas where Tori would be?’ I ask, opening the A-Z to see if anything jumps out at me. Maybe a road name?

‘Um, at home?’ He offers.

My eyes light up and clap my hands together ‘Bingo, Mac! Oh, but where the hell does she live?’

I sit back on our sofa and sigh. I know the town she lives in, but I have no clue as to what road or number she’s at. Why am I such a useless boyfriend? Why do I not listen carefully enough; I should know these things.

I look up and ask Mac a question ‘Mac, if Adele kissed me, what would you say?’

Mac’s eyes widen as he says ‘You better not have.’

I shake my head ‘No, of course I haven’t, the question was hypothetical. I just, I’ve screwed up big time with Tori. I went back to Cardiff to see my ex and then at one point we started kissing and Tori was there and she saw everything, but seeing your reaction like that, God, I can’t imagine how Tori must have felt. We’ve not even talked everything through. She started to cry last night and I can’t handle tears and emotion, I felt so guilty and awful and so I should be, so I made love to her, not that it did any good because look at me now, my girlfriends missing and she hasn’t even told me!’ I point out angrily.

‘Like you told her you kissed your ex, you mean.’ Mac says wisely, raising an eyebrow.

‘Alright, clever one; I get it, I’m a useless boyfriend. But I love her, Mac. I adore Tori. I don’t even care anymore that she followed me to spy on me. She could continue to try and piss me off and it wouldn’t even pass my skin because I love her so much. She’s my number one girl and now she’s missing! It’s like my heart is falling apart now she’s gone and doesn’t want me to know. Could this be the end of us?’

Mac twists his lips and says ‘I don’t know what to say.’ Great. How positive.

I shake my head and walk into my room ‘I need to find her before she decides she doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I can’t let that happen, yes I made things worse with kissing Abbie, but I am not compromising my relationship with Tori for a few thoughtless minutes of kissing. I am not letting that happen.’

‘Well you better get moving then, mate.’

I open my laptop and log onto Facebook and ask all the friends of Tori’s where she lives, but all they can give me is the town, which is what I already know. I need the number and street name! Why does no one know these trivial details?

‘Shit,’ I call out.

Mac comes in and says ‘Why did you kiss your ex?’

‘Don’t go there Mac, there’s no point. I didn’t mean to. It wasn’t done out of lust or love, more sympathy, ok? Now where is she going to be? Gosh, this is Victoria, she gets lost herself; she can’t live in the middle of nowhere.’ I exclaim.

‘Well, good luck with finding her, I’m at uni all day. See you, Salad.’ Mac says walking out the door.

‘Bye Mac.’

I go back into my room and see if she’s left any note, a sign, anything, but no.

Nothing at all.

I try calling her phone again and only get through to voicemail. I have to leave a message, if this is the only way I can contact her, so be it ‘Hey baby, I know you’re probably still upset and angry at me and I don’t blame you, I was a complete twat, ok? I know I screwed everything up, but please give me a chance, let’s talk some more, Chick? I am not ready to let what we have go to pieces because of me. You know I’m in love with you, Chick and would do anything for you to prove to you how much you mean to me. If you want banners, I’ll make banners, if you want me to jump off a cliff, I’ll do so, baby. Heck, I’ll let a pigeon shit on me if that makes you happy and will make you smile again. I miss your smile, baby, your true smile; the smile I fell for all those months ago, but has been hiding because of my stupid past coming back up to haunt me. Please tell me where you are so we can talk some more. I know you hate me right now and I don’t blame you at all for not forgiving me, but I want us to work, we are good together, you know that, before everything else came to light, when it was just me and you, we were great, baby, we were The Chicken Caesar Salad and I know we can get that back if we tried. Ok, I’m waffling now, but please call me and let me know you’re ok. I will always love you. Bye Chick.’

VICTORIA’S P.O.V

After walking Bambi around the nearby fields close my house for a quick walk, Ruby and I crash out on the sofa when I decide to ring Emily to tell her I’m ok. Knowing Emily she probably thought I had got hurt or something. I grab the house phone and as the line beeps for two tones, someone quickly picks up and says ‘Hello?’

‘Hey Em, it’s me.’

‘TORI!’ She exclaims in what sounds like pure relief ‘Hayden, it’s Tori!’ I smile at how sweet she is, wanting to tell Hayden I’m ok.

‘Where are you? Are you ok? Why did you leave?’ She asks quickly.

‘Whoa, slow down, Em! I’m at home. Yes, I’m ok. And because I need some time away; I really want to think about Caesar and me.’

‘In what ways?’

‘In every way possible; I just need some alone time from him and that will tell me everything about what I want from life.’

‘That’s pretty deep, Tor.’

I smile ‘That’s just me.’

‘Caesar came around here this morning.’ She tells me.

My breath catches in my throat and I start to choke ‘What? Why? Why was he there? What did he want?’

‘Duh, he woke up to find you missing, Tor, he needed to ask someone, not that I was any use or told him anything, because I am furious at him and also didn’t know.’

‘What did you say to him, Em?’ I ask seriously.

I can practically feel Emily’s face blush as she says ‘Well, you know…’

‘Emily, what did you say?’

‘Just that if you were hurt, he would be so dead.’

‘EMILY!’

Emily laughs, and then says ‘What? You know I would, as well.’

I sigh ‘What did he say?’

‘A lot of crap.’

Hayden then takes the phone and says ‘Hey Tor, she’s lying there, he was really worried about you, he wanted to know where you were and wanted to put things right.’

I bite my bottom lip as I feel myself getting emotional. ‘He shouldn’t have done it in the first place.’ I say to either Hayden or Emily.’

‘I know, Tor, I know.’ Hayden says.

Emily takes the phone back and soothes me by saying ‘Listen, it’s going to be ok, you just spend your time thinking things through, ok? That’s what you need. Think carefully, babe, don’t just forgive him, you need to think things through seriously-that’s essential. If he’s worth it, he’ll understand you needed some time.’

‘I know. Where is he now?’

‘I don’t know. I told him to get away from my flat before I killed him, so I don’t think he’ll come back.’

I laugh against my better judgement and say ‘You are mad, Emily.’

Emily giggles ‘Only because I care.’

‘I know you do.’ I say with a smile. She’s the only person I know that understands my pain on a deeper level.

‘So, what’s going to happen then?’

‘I don’t know, I need time still.’

‘Do you love him?’

I nod to myself. I have no doubt in my mind that I love him. ‘With all my heart, Em. Just…’

‘I know. Well what shall I say if he asks where you are?’

‘Tell him I’m away and that I need time alone.’

‘Ok, not that that’ll work, but ok.’

I grin ‘I love you, Em and I’ll see you soon.’

‘You too, Tor. Take care of yourself.’

As I hang up the phone, Ruby takes it and places it back in its holder on the cabinet and walks over to the calendar and sighs ‘Seriously, it’s the 14th Feb in a week’s time.’

I look up quickly and say ‘What? Really? What’s the day today?’

‘Duh, it’s the seventh, blimey, keep up to date, Tor!’ She teases as she writes Valentine’s Day on the calendar.

‘Really?’ I ask again, just to clarify.

She nods ‘Yeah, why?’

It can’t be the seventh today, it just, it can’t be. Where has my mind been for the past few weeks?

‘Are you ok, Tor?’ She asks as she puts the pen down.

These dates can’t be right.

‘Um, yeah, you know, just thinking.’ I say, twisting my fingers nervously in my lap.

‘No go on, tell me, Tor. What’s up?’

‘No, I’m fine. Everything’s fine. It’s just, gosh, I can’t believe it’s February already.’

She smiles ‘It is, missy. When’s your Caesar’s birthday again?’

‘The 18th.’

‘That’s pretty soon, but Valentines is before that.’ She says grinning.

I nod. My first ever Valentine’s Day with a guy and I don’t even think I’ll be celebrating it with him.

‘Maybe you should talk everything through with him; it might help you understand things better from his point of view.’ Ruby says as she sits at the opposite end of the sofa, attempting to offer some advice.

‘No, I’ve done everything in my power not to talk to him or hear what he has to say. I need to be alone to see if we really should be together and think things through for myself.’

But I think things have just got a whole lot worse.

‘Are you sure you’re ok?’ Ruby asks furrowing her brow ‘You seem…very edgy.’

‘Yes, of course I’m fine. I think I’m going to go out to the shops and get some stuff. Do you want anything?’

Ruby stands up and says ‘What’s wrong? When I told you the date, you freaked out.’

‘Ruby, nothing is wrong, ok?’ I say defiantly.

‘I don’t believe you.’

I can’t deny it any longer or fight with Ruby on this matter. I quickly sit down on the sofa and bury my head in a pillow, blotting out my tears which I know are already falling ‘Oh God, Ruby.’

Ruby sits down beside me and asks ‘Are you ok, Tor?’

I look up and shake my head ‘Oh Ruby, what the hell am I going to do?’

‘About what?’

I bite my lip as I force out ‘I think I might be pregnant.’

Ruby recoils as I begin to tell her ‘I come at the same time every month, without fail. I always felt so blessed that I could remember it and stuff because my body works like clockwork, but now, shit Ruby, now I’m nearly two weeks late.’

‘Two weeks!’

I bite my lip ‘Oh Rubes…’

Ruby ties her hair back and goes into big sister mode as she says ‘Let’s go and get you a test and see what happens ok? Maybe because you’re so stressed you’re body’s just gone a little all over the place. Were you always careful?’

This is even worse; discussing my sex life with my brother’s girlfriend, it just can’t be done. Ryan thinks I’m a saintly being, which I kind of was, but now, well now I don’t know what he’ll think.

‘Ruby, I don’t know.’ I say feebly. I think we were, but we have had so many times in the heat of the moment that I just can’t remember.

‘Well let’s go to the shops and make sure.’

‘I only arrived here yesterday, why is this all happening to me!’ I say through tears.

Ruby rubs my back and tells me ‘It’ll be ok, I promise you. It’s probably a false alarm.’

I look up and shake my head ‘I’m not meant to have Caesar, am I? All these things are happening to prevent me from being with him. Everything is getting in my bloody way for Caesar not to be with me. Is this what you want from me fate? Huh? HUH?’

Ruby puts both hands on my shoulders and says clearly ‘Let’s just go and do a test, ok?’

‘I can’t,’ I tell her.

‘What? Why?’

‘No, I can’t. I can’t get a test, Ruby. I can’t let this be true. Caesar and I are already on crap terms, me being pregnant is the final straw; Caesar has never wanted children and never does. This’ll end us.’

‘What are you on about?’ She asks confusedly.

‘He doesn’t want children, Ruby. His ex girlfriend had a miscarriage and he was abused as a child; a child is the absolute last thing he wants in life. What if this is a sign, a sign telling me to let him go, a sign telling me he shouldn’t be mine, like I’m not allowed him.’

Ruby stands up and shakes her head ‘Stop being ridiculous.’

‘I’m not, Ruby. Believe me, I have always been so lucky and my luck is quickly running out.’

‘Listen, before we start panicking, let’s go and get things official, you might be freaking out over nothing. Anyway, this is quite exciting actually.’

‘Exciting?’ I question.

She nods ‘Yeah, I’ve never had a scare before.’

I look at her with evil eyes and say ‘I could so strangle you right now.’

Ruby grins ‘Come on, it’s going to be fine!’

We get in her car to drive to the shops and feel a sense of pure sickness rise up inside me as we pull into the car park.

‘Are you ok; you look like you’re going to throw up?’

‘What if it says I’m pregnant, Ruby? This could be the end of my life.’

‘Try and be a little optimistic, Tor.’ She says getting out of the car.

We go into the pharmacy and Ruby tugs me over to the shelf laden with pregnancy tests. Why couldn’t I just be coming here for painkillers? Why a pregnancy test? I bite my lip and feel like crying. ‘What if I am?’ I say as I scan the shelves with women in their thirties on the cover.

‘Honey, you don’t know that yet.’

‘But, I’ll only be 20, Ruby! I can’t!’

‘Stop worrying!’

She grabs one test and I grab another one ‘I need to be sure.’

So after paying and getting dirty looks from the old woman behind the counter, we quickly go back home and I rush to the toilet and pee quickly. I leave the sticks in the bathroom then walk back out to Ruby.

‘Did you not think that you could be before now?’ She asks.

I rest my head in my hands as I mumble ‘Fleeting moments, you know, but I’ve been too busy to worry. I guess I’ve had cravings for apples and not been that hungry for anything else; I’ve been really tired and drained, as well.’ I say shrugging off the symptoms.

‘What about your boobs?’

‘What about them? I ask self-consciously.

‘Have they changed? Like, bigger, sorer, darker nipples?’

I bite my lip and feel like everything is stacked up against me. ‘How long has it been?’

‘Two minutes.’ She says.

‘Promise me that you won’t say anything, Ruby. Not even to Ryan. Please.’ I beg. I grab Ruby’s hands and she sees how serious I am. ‘You can’t, ok? I am trusting you, Ruby, you can’t tell a soul.’

‘Tori, I promise you, your secret’s safe with me, ok?’

I nod as I know she will keep her promise. Ruby’s like that. She never backs down on a promise.

‘Ok, I’m going to go and check now.’

I walk up the stairs slowly and walk into the clinically white bathroom and squint my eyes over to the tests waiting on the side for me. I can’t do this. I can’t let this happen.

I walk over to the tests and turn them over…

Ruby knocks on the door and asks ‘Well? What does it say?’

I open the door and shove the tests in her face ‘How the hell is this happening to me, Ruby,’ I say, before falling to the floor and breaking down in a bundle of tears.

‘Both?’ She asks quietly, looking at the pregnancy tests.

I bite my lip looking up at her, then nod ‘Yes, both. I’m pregnant, Ruby.’
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