When Sparks Fly...Chapter 18

*Hey everyone, I'm so glad you're all liking the story enough to comment, it's very touching and heartwarming-thanks ever so much. I'm so glad lots of you liked Caesar's P.O.V too! A little bad news which you'll probs hate me for is I'm starting school again on Monday-sigh-so it'll be harder for me to update as often. I know this will annoy you as in the next chapter you'll find out about Caesar's past, but please understand I can't help it! Remember, good things come to those who wait! It'll be out as soon as I can type it-I promise! I'm worried about your reaction to Caesar's past as a lotof you have very high expectations and I'd hate to think what I came up with has let you down, but we'll see!

Some responses...
Latoya-lol! Yeah, very very subtle, makes a change for me! Lol! Ahh, I'm so glad! I think a lot of people like Caesar's P.O.V so that was a good reaction! And I think everyone loves Caesar too!
Kathrine-you make me smile so much! Haha! Is prune your fav word now?! Mines nonchalantly and numb! Just thought I'd share! And I am super excited with your story!
Reason J-haha, ahh, fall in love with them, I don’t mind! Um, no. I haven’t. They’re not based on anyone generally and I have yet to meet anyone who is as hot and has any of my guys personalities, sigh! Ahh thanks so much, but there are honestly much better authors on here. Oohh, my inspiration. I don’t think my ideas are that farfetched tbh, I’m sure anyone could come up with them, but I like to think about dilemmas and what I’d do in them. Writing allows me to explore other lives and create characters and stuff. I write purely for fun and I’m glad so many people like what I randomly write!
Armit-yes, I am really nosy, just like Tor! I love finding out juicy stuff! It's thrilling!
Laura-Lee-bless you. You sound so cute you hopeless romantic disney princess! I'm glad you like it so much and can relate to Tor. Haha, ahh cute little grammar freak!

Mel-really?! Well I’m glad I’m not the only one! I don’t see why you think I deserve a guy though! I’m not different to anyone else!
Amrit-lol! Haha, I don’t think you can go mad on my stories so you’re ok! And smiling is good! Ahh, yeah same, I wish too!
Mevvi-I have been so busy I have not really been keeping up with stories lately, but I will get around to reading it soon!
Laura-Beth-Ahhh bless you, I’m sure it would be fine without me though! There are very good authors like yourself(I am eagerly awaiting your next chapter!lol)
SK-you crack me up! Yeah, you should see my whining to my friends about love and guys! Lol! Haha. I think you just want me to spill the beans when I do find a guy so you can all ‘ahh’ cos you’re all soo cute towards me and hopeless romantics! Lol! Haha, I know where I want to find my guy but that’s for me to know!
Rebby-wow, your comment is so sweet! I love that you said my work was magical-bless you! Haha, I’d like I think I know how to please my readers, for starters you’re all a very romantic lot and you swoon at anything intimate and you’re all diehard fans for bad guys with charm! Lol! Ahh I’d like to think I’m a nice friend!
Broken-you just let me know, haha, Hannah or Hope is good! :D
Monica-you make me smile. Thanks. I hope so too. And of course I wish you exactly the same thing!
Sam-ahh thanks-bless you! What made you cry? Haha, yes they are always kissing each other and holding each others hands-I just find it too adorable to miss out! Um, I don't know, I've not finished the story yet in my mind so I'm randomly guessing about 10. Honestly I don't know. It could be lots more!
Ciriat-ahh I'm so glad! Yes, I think it was too. Her reaction had to be spontaneous, because planning it would lose everything special about her first time in my opinion.
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I open the door to my flat late on Friday evening, but even before I can hang my coat up, Emily jumps out from the living room and says ‘Where the hell have you been?! God, I was worried sick, Tori.’

She wraps her arms around me and I give her a tight squeeze. ‘I’m here now, silly.’ I say with a smile.

‘Where were you? I was worried.’ And she looks it.

I bite my bottom lip and grin ‘I was with Caesar.’

‘You stayed the night?’

I nod smiling ‘Yes.’

‘Did you two…?’ She says, her eyes widening by the second.

I nod vigorously and jump and down on the spot. ‘YES!’

‘AHHH! OH MY GOODNESS!’ She screams jumping up and down with me. ‘REALLY?!’

I nod and fall back dramatically on the sofa and say ‘It was the best day of my life, Em.’

Emily claps her hands like a seal and says ‘Details. Now!’

I laugh and say ‘Later. But it was amazing and now I get why you get so crazy with Hayden.’

Emily laughs and then I see Hayden coming out of the bathroom and he just smiles, unsure of what we are talking about.

‘You’re back, Tor. Where have you been hiding then?’ Hayden says as he sits opposite us.

‘She’s been with her man!’ Emily coos.

Hayden grins at me ‘Oh yeah, doing what?’

‘What you can’t get enough of.’ Emily says.

I laugh and Hayden looks at me ‘Oh really, well I should have a talk with him if he’s with one of my best friends.’ And Hayden is deadly serious.

‘Ahh Hayden. Thanks for caring, but he doesn’t need a lecturing.’

Hayden raises an eyebrow and says ‘Well that’s not fair. I was nearly slaughtered by Em’s dad when we started going out.’

Emily and I laugh and say ‘Why? What happened?’

Emily smiles at Hayden and says ‘They didn’t start off too good, probably because my dad caught us kissing in Hayden’s car in a car park. He thought we went further, but we hadn’t then and Hayden was alone in a room with my dad for an hour.’

‘Oh Hayden.’ Poor guy.

‘Yeah, we’re ok now though. He knows I love Em and stuff so he trusts me with her.’

I smile and Emily blows a kiss to Hayden.

‘When are you seeing him next?’ She asks.

‘Tomorrow, I think. It’s crazy, Em, I miss him already and I’ve just spent two days non-stop with him.’

She nods and says ‘Ahh Tor, you’re falling for him.’

I shake my head ‘I don’t know. It’s too soon to say and I don’t want to jinx it.’

She nods ‘Of course; would you mind Hayden if Tor and I had a girly night alone?’

He smiles and says ‘Sure, you catch up and divulge in detail what Tor got up to, you dirty minx.’

Emily cackles and Hayden laughs giving her a big kiss before leaving ‘Do you really discuss our sex life in detail?’ He asks.

I hold my tongue and Emily looks at Hayden and Emily says ‘You know I do. But it’s ok, it’s all good things.’

Hayden grins and gives me a kiss ‘I don’t even want to know. Anyway well done Tor, I think he really likes you.’

‘Oh I hope so.’ I really do.

*

Today Caesar and I are seeing each other for the last time before we break up for Christmas. I am really sad about it because I don’t know how I’ll cope away from him for that long. We’ve arranged to meet up but still I don’t know how I’ll cope.

We’re going to this really smart restaurant that Caesar’s recommended. So I meet Caesar there after spending ages choosing what to wear. I opted for a thick dress and warm cardigan as it is so bloody cold at the moment and its midday, so I smartly yet casually dressed.

Caesar’s already there and he smiles when he sees me ‘Hey Chick, you look gorgeous today.’

‘Thanks baby.’ I give him a kiss and Caesar gently places his hand on my back and shows us through.

‘I’ve been so busy today.’ I say as we sit down.

‘Really, why?’

‘I’ve been busy getting my family the last of their presents.’

He smiles ‘You should be more like me.’

‘Oi, I helped you get your presents.’ I point out.

He laughs and shrugs ‘But I got in done first.’

‘I’m telling your family I helped.’

‘I’m sure they’d believe you. So what did you get everyone then?’

‘Oh Gosh, lots. Well I got my mum and dad this coffee machine they’ve been on about. I got the last one in the shop, talk about lucky, hey? Then I got my brothers some gadget thing they both wanted. I looked like a fool in the shop trying to explain it to the shop assistant and some Wii games. I’m surprised they have girlfriends because they’re constantly on that.’

‘I love those games. Mac and I spend house playing Mario Kart together.’ Caesar says enthusiastically.

‘Yes, I like it too, but they are both obsessed. They got angry when I broke their high score on a fluke and they didn’t talk to me for days.’

Caesar laughs and says ‘Poor guys, I would have done the same thing.’

‘Because you’re a sore loser.’

‘Just like you.’

I poke my tongue out and Caesar’s foot gently starts to graze up the back of my leg causing me to smile and take his hand in mine.

After ordering our meals, which look so scrummy I am salivating at the thought of them I tell Caesar ‘I got you your present too.’

‘You shouldn’t have got me anything, there was no need to.’

I shake my head and say ‘There is every need too.’

‘Well I got you something too.’

My heart skips a beat when he tells me this, but I don’t let him know that as I say back ‘Why did you get me something then?’

‘Because I’m a guy who wants so spoil his girlfriend. It’s back at my place so you’ll have to come and get it afterwards.’

‘Yes, let’s make a de-tour to mine first.’

He nods and says ‘What happens at the Rainford household for Christmas then?’

I smile ‘It’s manic. We have everyone over because my dad is the eldest sibling and my mum’s an only child. My cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents all come around for Christmas day and we spend the morning in Church for the Christmas ceremony and then we go back home where my Nan has made the roast and we have our meal then we spend the afternoon and evening getting merry on wine. We open presents around 4ish and then have coffee and tea after that. Then we take all the animals for a walk.’

‘What?’

I look up and say ‘What?’

‘You take the animals for a walk?’

I nod ‘Yeah, the dogs, we take Bambi….’

He cuts in and says ‘I still can’t believe you called your poor dog Bambi.’

‘Why not? It’s such a cute name!’

Caesar doesn’t agree and says ‘What other animals?’

‘Well my aunt and uncle’s dog Pat and my Nan’s dog Tippi.’

Caesar smiles and says ‘Pat the dog, I like it.’

‘I thought you would.’ I say grinning as our meals arrive.

‘I’m going to miss you.’ I say as I watch him eat his spaghetti Bolognese. I open my mouth and Caesar dutifully feeds me some. Oh that is good; but not as good as my pizza!
Caesar tilts his head and nods ‘Same. I see you all the time here, so being away from you baby will be tough.’

I sigh ‘It’s going to be really tough.’ I feel tears forming but Caesar wipes them away and rubs my arm up and down.

‘Don’t worry, I’ll see you during it and bug you every day with calls.’

‘Do.’

‘I promise.’ He says earnestly.

I nod and have some pizza before asking ‘What does your family do for Christmas then?’

‘It’s pretty small. We’re going to my mum’s sisters, where my cousins will be and my Nan and Granddad. Not a lot of people but everyone who we care about; we’re a pretty close family.’

‘What about your dad’s side of the family?’ I ask.

I can feel Caesar’s leg tense up on the back of mine as he stops rubbing.

‘Do you not see your dad over Christmas?’

Caesar puts his fork down and I can see him bite his tongue. Something’s wrong.

‘Are you ok?’

‘I’m fine.’ He throws back a little too quickly.

‘Well that’s a lie. What happened with your dad?’

‘Don’t start again, Chick. Stop asking questions. Please’ He gets so bloody annoyed when I approach anything like this.

‘Actually I will start asking questions.’ I say angrily ‘I have let it go for a couple of weeks now and haven’t pushed you, but now you’ve got to start talking to me. I can see you’re hiding things from me and it’s frustrating you. You get so tetchy when I even approach something personal, now it’s not only Cardiff you’re hiding from me, now you won’t tell me about your dad.’

‘Well maybe I don’t want to share things with you.’ He says dropping his head down low to avoid looking at me.

I draw my hand away from his and move my legs aside. I’m not going to get angry. It won’t solve anything and it will cause him to close up even more from me and I don’t want that. I want him to open up to me.

‘Caesar, what happened?’ I ask calmly.

‘Don’t Chick. I don’t want to talk about it.’ He says stubbornly.

‘Well I think you need to. I can’t keep going along not knowing about what causes you get to get so angry and upset. Trust me, Caesar. I promise I’ll understand.’

‘I CAN’T!’ He yells in front of the whole restaurant, bancing his clenched fist onto the table.

Without a second thought, I leave the restaurant and walk away. I refuse to be yelled at in front of strangers. That is not on.

‘CHICK.’ Caesar yells after me. I can hear his feet pounding the pavement behind me.

‘Piss off, Caesar.’ I say, wiping the tears flowing from my eyes as I run on.

‘Wait, Chick.’ He grabs my arm causing me to stop running.

I turn on my heels and look back at Caesar and say ‘No, I fucking well won’t wait.’ As I yank my wrist out of his hand ‘Why can’t you trust me? I trusted you, I gave a big piece of myself to you, Caesar, and you took my bloody virginity for goodness sake! Or did that mean nothing to you? Why the hell won’t you trust me back?’

Caesar looks at me, running his hand through his wavy hair and he bites his lip before saying ‘It’s hard, Chick. Really hard. I don’t like talking about it and I don’t talk about it. Ever. And you know how much you mean to me, you mean everything to me so don’t start talking shit like that. It’s not fair.’

‘Why won’t you trust me, then?’ I plead.

Caesar looks at me long and hard and says ‘I can’t.’

I walk slowly towards him and say, raising my hand to his cheek ‘Yes you can, because I know there are a lot of things holding you back. Tell me, Caesar. Tell me what happened in Cardiff and with your dad.’

Caesar then walks over to a bench and for the first time ever, I see him start to cry. Oh no. Oh God what have I done. How could I have made him cry?

I rush over to his side and rub his back, unsure of what to say. ‘Oh Caesar, I am so sorry, I didn’t want to make you cry. I’m just worried about you. I really am.’

Caesar properly breaks down in front of me and I wrap my arms around him and hold him tightly as his body shakes from the emotional pain he won’t share with me. ‘Oh baby, what happened?’

He shakes his head and I say again ‘Tell me, Caesar. Goodness, I think you’ll feel better for sharing it. I’m worried about you. You don’t have to tell me, tell Mac, your mum. Do they know?’

He sniffles and says nothing.

I kiss his cheek and feel hopeless. He’s not ok. He’s not been ok since I’ve met him. He’s keeping something’s so tightly hidden away.

‘What happened?’ I ask softly, a good five minutes later after soothing him.

He pulls away from me then says ‘Please hear me out.’

‘Of course I will. Are you sure you want to tell me? I mean, I don’t care if you don’t tell me but I think you need to talk to someone, you need to get it off your chest, and then you can tell me. Does anyone else know what happened in Cardiff?’

He shakes his head and bites his bottom lip hard. ‘Hear me out. Please.’ He mumbles a few seconds later.

‘Of course I will, baby.’ I tell him honestly.

But I’m worried now.

What is he going to tell me?
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