When She's Gone

I'm fine looking up at the stars with her next to me seeing the stars dance around the sky. In my mind I see life with her all ways by my side. But some thing happened the other day some thing bad while laying on the grass on a beautiful night looking up at the sky reminiscing just thinking what to do now where to go where my life is going. Suddenly the sky goes black stars stop spinning round in circles clouds lose their silver linings my mind shuts down. When I open my eyes I'm standing over a bed the walls talking to me people screaming at me I look down and tears fall from my eyes for in front of me there she is laying down on the bed skin white as snow lips red as roses pulse faint. I turn and run as people start chasing me with torches in my mind I see my self screaming in the mirror as if he was screaming at himself. Blaming my self for what had happened head spinning gut churning. I stop and duck behind a corner in front of me I find a gun I pick it up hold it to my temple cock and lock it and think of what I had seen I pull the trigger the bullet pierces my head blood splatters and then nothing a while later I wake without her next to me later that day I go for a walk and there she is sitting on the bench I run to her lift her up and never let her go as I had when she was gone.