When I Was Your Sweetheart; Love Changes to Mistrust

Please Jason don't forget me,
Try to continue where we left off
Don't leave me empty and broken inside
With just memories of you...
The things you said, the laughter,
The joy and sadness we shared,
The hugs-showing how much you cared.
Don't leave me like this,
Lost in the wilderness,
Not knowing who to trust
And who really is my friend?

You gave me courage and support
And then out of the blue
You said you where leaving,
When it was just me and you!
The people around me are like eagles
They hunt me down like i'm their pray
Searching for weaknesses.
Where do I hide?
When you re not there to console me
To protect me from cruel words and actions.
I fear for myself, not knowing where to turn.
Don't leave me like this,
Lost in the wilderness,
Not knowing who to trust
And who really is my friend?

Please Jason don't forget me,
Try to continue where we left off
Don't leave me empty and broken inside
With just memories of you...
The things you said, the laughter,
The joy and sadness we shared,
The hugs-showing how much you cared.
Don't leave me like this,
Sad in the wilderness,
Not knowing who to trust
And who really is my friend?

Why are you so scared?
Of being the person I once knew,
Why you have to run?
You left all my questions unanswered
And me full of doubts, was I right to choose you?
So determined to leave me behind?
How did I fail you? Or did I need you too much?
Is it too late to say I'm sorry and start all over again,
Please forgive me if I have done you wrong.
Forget what I said and done in the past!!!
Let’s start over I am so afraid
Of loosing you and myself
In this bitter world of no justice.

I see only darkness now, gloom and despair
Deep longing for what I had and lost....
I know not where I am going
And don't trust my own instincts,
My judgment is failing me
I seek refuge in your arms.
I trust not the arms of others
Who try to take me away,
Steer me on another direction
To make me forget the memories of you.

I'm in hand of people who pretend to be nice
But they only care about themselves
And what I can do for them.
I struggle to gain control of my life,
But is lost in the hands of those without mercy.
They stir me away, to another path
And way of life so far away from my own.
I am a victim among men and women
Who despise me who try to gain knowledge
And skill, secrets from me which I hide.
I'm lost now without protection,
Without guidance and trust.
No one is really there for me
Who can I trust? I'm scared

I feel hatred for the life
Surround me, for those who scorn me
And rebel against me, they tell me lies
To win me over, but it’s all pretend
When the feelings gone it comes to an end.

Who do I turn if not you! What do I say?
To those who pretend to care
And when the time comes they are not there
And I am left alone again, in different directions
And locations, I meet all sorts of people
Who hide their inner motives.

You want me to meet your needs
And you change your mind
When you find out that it’s all
Just a momentary thing.
Just a passing feeling
Otherwise called a fling.
When used to call me;
Josie Sweetheart.