When I Actually Start To Matter

I really loved this guy and thought he felt the same
But he blew it one day when he called me by the wrong name.
He tried to blow it over
But I said too late you blew your cover.
I felt so hurt and lied to
I yelled that I hate you
And then he walked away
So much for a good day.
That night as I lay down to sleep
I buried my face in my pillow and started to weep.
Why did things have to be this way?
Will you just listen to what I have to say?
I am tired of telling people I am okay
When really my smile is fading away.
I try so hard to forget
But yet I try not to regret
The love that we had together
Will be in my memory forever.
I try to call him but his mom tells me he cant get to the phone
But I know that he is sitting there at home.
I know he didn’t mean to hurt me
But I got to get him to see.
That he can’t be the guy
To always make me cry.
He knows how I feel
He knows our love was real.
Which is why I want to fix it
Instead of throw a big fit.
Does he still care for me after all this?
Will I ever again feel his tender kiss?
I told him that when I said I hated him I lied
And I told them about how all last night I cried
He said that he didn’t know what he wanted
That his true feelings had to be confronted.
He said that he’d let me know
How he thought things between us could go.
I said just tell me when
You knew what you wanted and until then
Just let me know when I actually start to matter to you.