What Shall I Do....

The days are boring, filled with the shadows of loneliness. In spite of having everyone around me, why I feel so lost and alone. Everything appears still, and pale. There is no color anywhere. It's all gray..
I know why it's like this, but I don't know the solution to this problem. Is this my imagination or is it real. I know he loves me but what is the future of this relationship. Shall I end it here or shall I leave it on my destiny. I'm so stressed and confused. Mind appears to be irritated thinking can't this since last 48 hrs.

He is my everything, we have seen every dream together. The glimpse of future is banging my mind.
Sometime it shows the happy life with him, filled with the rainbow of colors of love. Sometimes it so dark, that even I can't see myself.
Being a girl now seems to be the worst thing in my life. Why can't a girl do what she desires. Yes many girls can do but not all. Still many areas are there, where girls are made to do what their parents want. Sometimes they are made to do that forcefully, or sometimes they emotionally make her do. And I belong to the latter.
I want to scream, I want to run away. But there seems to be no way. All directions are lost. And I'm confused where shall I proceed now.

If I'll follow my heart, I'm not satisfied. If I satisfy my mind, my heart will die. In both the cases, one of my vital part has to suffer. Which one should I sacrifice. The mind or the heart.

Mind says follow what your parents say, they are everything for you. They have always given you everything. They satisfied your all needs. How can you be selfish. Your duty is to make them happy.

And heart say, how will you live without him. How will he live without you? Will you be able to hurt him and yourself? Will you be able to see him in pain? How can you do injustice with the person who loved you the most, who was always there to wipe your every tear. Who always wish to see a smile on your face, in spite of getting hurt himself. how can you be selfish. How can you be with someone else? Can't you fight with your parents? Can't you be with him?

What's the solution? Whom to choose: heart or mind? Don't know? Thinks many girls like us...