What is Love With Secrets? - Chapter 4

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The next Morning my mother woke me up at 7:30 pm like I asked her too. I got dressed and when downstairs to have some coffee.
"Hey do you want some toast, I'm putting some in?" she asked holding up a slice of bread.
"I'm good" I said then sipped some of my coffee.
"So what have you got planned for this week?" she asked.
"Well it's this winter ball in 2 weeks" I said.
"That's nice, you going with anyone?" She asked.
"I'm not sure yet I might go on my own and just have fun" I said standing up and putting my cup into the sink.
"Well that's nice" she said taking the toast out of the toaster.
After she finished her toast and I done my hair we when out into the rain and drove to the garage. The drive was long and silent , it was now November so the Morning's were getting even darker. As we arrived at the garage my truck was parked out front ready for me to pick-up.

"Thanks for the lift mum" I said opening the door.
"It's ok, have you got money to pay the bill?" she asked.
" Yeah I got some" I said.
"Ok then see you at home" she said.
"Bye" I said shutting the car door.
I ran into the garage and sat down in the waiting area, there wasn't any there so it wasn't that busy so I would be out of here in a bit.
"Hello I'm Luke" said a man in his 40s walking up to me.
"Hi Luke I'm Amelia we talked on the phone the other day about my truck" I said standing up.
"Are yes your truck, there wasn't much wrong with it only a loose wire, it's all ok now." He said.

"How much will it be?" I asked.
"Well around about $15" he said.
"Do you want me to pay you now?" I asked.
"Yeah sure that will be great, come to the counter" he said.
After I paid the bill Luke let me take my truck and drive away. I was happy that I had my truck back so I went into Joe's cafe and bought a coffee and a little cake. I decided to sit inside due to rain so I got a magazine of the other table and read it while I drank my coffee and eat my cake.
"Hey would you like any think else?" ask the waitress.
"No thanks I'm good" I said looking up to see the same girl who served me and Daniel last time.
"Oh hello where is your boyfriend today?" she said smiling.
"He's not my boyfriend" I said.
"Oh isn't he, do he have a girlfriend?" she asked.
"How would I know" I said then she walked away with a spring in her step.

After I drank my coffee I drove home to get a head start on my homework. Instead of going right home I stopped by the shop to get some milk and some more coffee. When I arrived home there were no cars in the drive way so I had the house to myself. I walked into the house and put away the milk and coffee, then I went upstairs and started on my homework. I finished all my homework and had some food when my parents arrived home. I went to bed early because I needed a good night sleep. I usually have my visions in the night when I'm sleeping most of the time or when I close my eyes they just come to me and tonight I had a bad one. It's had a man or a teenager in the woods who changed into a werewolf but I couldn't see his face to identify who he was, he was tall, tanned with dark brown hair.

He changed into a werewolf with dark fur and dark brown eyes. It wasn't a long vision but it sure wasn't a normal one and I know that for sure. I woke up in a panic and when downstairs to get a drink to calm me down a little. I looked at the clock on the wall which said 4:30 am, I had a while until I was meant to wake up, I wondered what my vision was about. Usually I know every think so clearly like I'm there watching all of it happen getting all the information I need but this time I never knew who this person was or what he was up to, I don't even know who he's going to hurt or how many. The other thing I didn't understand was that he turned into a werewolf, but I didn't need to worry about this right now, I needed to get some sleep.

I woke up late after my little "wake-up" last night, I rushed to get ready putting on my jeans and an old top, I left my hair out because I was to late to tie it up or do anything nice to it, I poured half a cup of coffee and drank it fast to wake me up a little more. I grabbed my coat and shoes out of the closet and put them on, I found my keys on the side table and drove to school in a rush. The Morning was dark and it looked like it was going to rain again. I pulled into the school parking lot and everyone must have gone in already because it was empty so I jumped out of my truck, locked it and ran to registration. I was running down the hall with my bag over my shoulder and my coat in hand, I turned the corner and ran smack bang in someone, we both when flying on to the floor, lucky for me I fell on top so I never had much of a fall.

"Oh god, are you ok?" I asked.
"I'm fine, are you?" asked a deep voice.
I looked up to see Daniel laying under me, I tried to look away to find my bag and coat but I couldn't take my eyes from his gaze.
"I'm fine and I'm really sorry I was late for registration......." I said trailing off .
"It's ok really" he said getting a strand of hair out of my face.
"Thanks" I said and blushed a little.

I pushed myself up so I was sitting on the floor, Daniel sat up and helped me get my bag off the floor. He stood up and held out a hand smiling, I placed my hand into his and pulled myself up leaving my coat on the floor. We were standing close together any closer and we would end up on the floor again. I looked up to find him staring back at me smiling, with his free hand he touched my cheek moving his fingers down under my chin. His touch was warm and smooth on my skin, his dark eyes were like being sucked into a black hole, I just couldn't take my eyes away from his. Wow what was I thinking he probably has a girlfriend or liked someone else. Before I could step away and say sorry again he bent down and kissed me so lightly on the lips it didn't feel like he actually kissed me. I closed my eyes to go over what just happen but before I could ask what happened he kissed me again. His lips were soft, warm and perfect I should have pulled away but his lips were so warm they were irresistible , he let go of my hand and rapped his arms around my waste and pulled me close, which wasn't much as we were as close as we could get, his body was warm like his lips.

The bell rang at the worst time ever, I pulled away from him and look down at my feet a little shy. He put his finger under my chin so I could look right at him.
"Another time" he said and kissed me on the cheek and walked away down the hall.
I picked up my coat and walked in the opposite direction in a daze to history.
The passed 20 minutes was even more of a daze to me, while I was in history I replayed the scene in my head and wondered what just happened. But enough of my problems I need to find out who this anonymous person who was in my vision. The first thing I would usually do is call the place where the accident happens but in this case it was the wood's so I have nowhere to call. My other option would be call the people or person if I got a name or a address and tell them to stay in side for the day or that there in danger but in this case again the person turned into a werewolf and I'm not a telepath I'm a psychic if that's what you want to call it. While I was thinking over what I should and shouldn't do the bell rang. I packed up and walked to next lesson, while I was walking I pasted a poster saying "Winter Ball changed to this week" in big blue writing. I stopped by my locker to pick up some books for the next lessons, as I was about to shut my locker Jazz come out of now where and scared me.

"Oh Hey, where did you come from?" I asked shocked.
"Well I first come from my mother ordinary but if your asking where did I just come from like 5 minutes ago that would be science" she said laughing.
"Ok Jazz a little to much detail. Hey have you seen the poster?" I asked.
"What poster?" she asked.
"The Winter ball has been changed to this week for some odd reason" I said.
"Wow, I better get some shoes" she said all excited.
"What do you have next's?" I asked.
"Boring English. Hey I forgot to ask have you found anyone to go to the dance with yet ?" she asked.
"No not yet, I still might just go on my own" I said.
"Jimmy said he was interested" she said pressing her lips together trying not to laugh.
"Buck tooth jimmy, really I can't do any better" I said and burst into laughter.
"You could do a hole lode better" she said

"I better get going to geography, I'll see you at lunch" I said shutting my locker.
"See you, Oh I'll tell jimmy then it's a no" she said still laughing.
"You better" I said and turned to walk to geography.
Geography wasn't my favorite subject but I was good at it somehow, this lesson we had a small test which was boring but I had a good score.
After break and third period it was lunch. I walked in to the cafeteria to see Jazz wait for with her hot dinner in front of her. After I collect my lunch I walked over to her.
"Hey" I said sitting down in my usual seat.
"Hey" she said taking a sip of water.
"How was lesson ?" I asked.
"Boring as usual, you?" she asked
"Same" I said.

"What do have last lesson ?" she asked.
"Physics why?" I asked. And at that moment Daniel come into my head, I had a lode of questions which he needed to answer.
"Do you mind if I catch a lift with you, my mum took my car because hers broke down yesterday so I let her have mine for the meanwhile" she said.
"Yeah sure" I said, "everyone's car is breaking down"
"I know" she said.
After lunch I had English. I had my favorite teacher Miss. Ahmed who was in her mid - twenties. She love's teaching English and she a good teacher too so that's a bonus. After English I went to my locker fast to collect my Physics book. I wanted to skip physics after what happened in the hallway but I need to give Jazz a lift home. I opened my locker to find a note say Amelia on the front, I knew the writing right away because I seen it before.

Meet me around back at the end of school by the big Oak tree.
We need to talk.

D x

I shoved the note into my bag and got my book's for physics. I walked to physic wonder what Daniel wanted, he kissed me and now he's going to try to make me not tell anyone about it? If he regrets it that much why did he do it in the first places?
I walked in to the class room to see his seat empty. It was kind of a relief in one way but in another it was kind of a lost. Emily come and sat by me in the middle of lesson I guess she was bored or some think.
"So who you going to the dance with ?" she asked while I was in the middle of my work.
"Umm not sure yet might just go on my own" I said turning to see a surprised look in her face. "How about you ?"
"James asked me last night so I'm going with him" she said "Why you not going with anyone ?" she asked.
"No one asked me and I might enjoy it more on my own" I said turning to carry on with my work.

"Oh, someone will ask" and that what all she said.
I liked Emily and all but she wants to know everyone's business, James was like a male version of her, I'm glad they are going to the dance together because they are perfect for each other.
When physic finished I walked to the P.E department and out the back so no one would know where I was going and follow.
I walked across the field to find Daniel leaning a against the oak tree with a pencil and a note pad in his hand.
"Hi" I said a little shy.
"Oh hello, you got my note then" he said shutting the note pad and putting it into his back pocket.

"Yes, don't worry I won't say any think" I said turning around to walk back to the parking lot.
"Hey what are you on about ?" he said grabbing my hand.
"You wanted to talk to me about what happened in the hall, I get it you regret it, I won't tell anyone so save the hassle for someone else" I said.
I tried to pull away but he wouldn't let go instead he pulled me closer toward him.
"Who said I regret it ? he said.
"Why else would you want to talk to me ?" I said looking up to see him looking down at me.
"To see you again" he said.
"We see each other in the hall" I said.
"I know we see each other in the hall but I want it to just be us too, like now" he said looking around.
I looked around to see that he was right, it was just me and him on the field by the oak tree.

As I was going to look down he put his finger under my chin to stop me and lifted it up to look right in to my brown eyes.
"I need to show you some think" he said letting go of me. As he left go all the warmth from his touch was gone, I felt cold and alone.
He got his note pad out of his back pocket and grabbed my hand again to pull me over to the tree. He sat down on the grass pulling me down to sit next to him.
"What is it ?" I asked getting comfortable.
"Look and you will see" he said opening the note pad and handing it to me.
I looked the pad he handed to me and a sketched person was on there.
"Wow who done these ?"I asked looking up smiling.
I looked at the next one, it was a sketch of the same person but smiling this time. I flicked thought the others they were all the same person. I stopped in the middle of folding the page when it hit me, this person was me in every sketch. I looked up at Daniel who was watching my every move.

"Did you draw these ?" I asked turning over the next page.
"Yes. Do you like them ?" he asked.
"Who is this person" I asked not answering his question.
"You" he whisper into my ear.
And at that monument I started to cry, he lifted my chin to look at me.
"Why are you crying ?" he asked.
"Because no one has every gone thought this much trouble for me, I know I sound stupid, just give me a minute I'll get over it" I said.
"You don't sound stupid" he said wiping away my tears.
As I was getting over crying I looked over at the parking lot to see my truck there on his own, then I remembered that I was meant to take Jazz home.
"Shit" I said jumping up.
I looked down at the space where me and Daniel was sitting to find that he wasn't there instead he was already on his feet standing next to me.
"What's wrong ?" he asked.

"I forgot I was meant to drop Jazz home, her mothers car broke down and I said I will take her home but I totally forgot" I said.
"Oh" he said.
"Yeah Oh"
"Well can we meet again some other time ?" he asked.
"Yeah sure when?" I asked.
"Here next week I want to show you some think" he said.
"Sure" I said.
"One more thing" he said.
"What ?" I asked
He pulled me close and kissed me on the cheek lightly, I was meant to be worried about Jazz right now but I just when blank and my body when like jelly just from that little kiss.
" Now go" he said in my ear.
I ran back to the parking lot seeing my truck in the middle with no other cars. I got my keys out of my bag and ran over to my truck. I opened the drivers side and jump in to find a note on the passenger side stuck to the window. I leaned over to the passenger side and unwound the window. I got the note and put the window back up and sad and read it.

Hey call me when you get this note.
I waited for you but you never showed up so I got a lift off Emily.

Jazz x

I was getting a lot of notes lately, why don't people just call me on something called a cell phone? I placed the note on the passenger seat and when through my bag to fine my cell, I opened it to fine 3 missed calls from jazz. I must have put it on silence before class and forgot to put it back onto sound, but with Daniel and all I never had much time too. Then it hit me, what was me and a Daniel doing; going out? Having some fun?. I've never had any 'fun' before and I don't want to start now if end up being called a slut and I get my heart broken.

I sat there staring out the window of my truck thinking things over about me and Daniel and by thinking about him my heat started to hurt, not like a heart a tack but like someone ripping it out. I was so confused about what was happening to me, I've just met someone who likes me for who I am someone who understands me and who is clearly perfect for me but by the end of this he going to get hurt from me and I don't want that to happen to him. I don't want him get involved with a girl like me; messed up, weird, etc...even if people don't no it. There is only one thing that will make things alright but it's going to hurt me a lot and it might hurt him to but its for the best.
"Why me" I said out loud to calm myself.

I started up the truck and drove home but I didn't feel like going right home so I took a detour and drove the long way home through the woods. The drive was peaceful, there were no cars on the road so I had an easy drive home, I listened to the radio while driving to take away that silence and to stop me thinking about what I'm going to say to Daniel, I have to let him down easy and to face to face.
I pulled up onto the drive to see the living room light on and two extra cars by the front of the house. My mum must have some of her friends over to talk because my father's car wasn't in the drive and the two cars out the front looked more cleaner than men's cars would be.

I walked in to find my mum with her two friends like I expected sitting and talking with drinks in there hands and some snacks on the table.
"Hey I'm home mum" I said pocking my head in to the living room.
"Ok, say hi to Julia and Debbie"
"Oh hi, I hope you guys have a nice night I'll be upstairs if you need me mom" I said taking off my shoes.
Julia a woman in her late thirties with chocolate brown hair, three children all boy's one of my age Lewis, one 2 years older Nick and little Charlie who is 10. She has a husband Theo who works with my dad, he's a nice man but I've only meat him twice so I don't really know him much. And Debbie who is also in her late thirties with blonde brown hair is a single woman and likes it that way. It's not like she can't get men because believe me she can but she choose not to be with them, she likes all that indented stuff.

I walked upstairs and changed straight into my P.J's , and but my hair into a loose ponytail.
I grabbed my bag and when through it to find my cell phone to call Jazz. But what was I going to tell her "Sorry I was never there to picked you up I was to busy behind the school with Daniel who was expressing his feeling for me" how could I say that to her but I can't lie to her she's my friend. O just do it, she won't mind how is she going to find out a little voice said it my head, what if I said the teacher kept me behind to talk to me and I couldn't get away. Yeah that will do.
I dialed Jazz number and waited until she picked up.
"Hello?" she said.
"Oh hey Jazz, sorry I wasn't there today after school to take you home"
"Oh it's ok. What happened to you anyway ?" she asked.
"I got kept behind after school, my teacher wanted to talk about my grades and that I was doing good. I don't why it was a waste of time and I didn't want to be rude" I said trying my best to hide the lie in my voice.
"Well that's ok"

"I'll buy you a coffee or some think to make it up to you tomorrow"
"I'm keeping your word on that one"
"Ok" I said and laughed nervously.
"So you found anyone to go to the dance with yet?" she asked.
"No not yet and I don't really want to go with anyone. How long is it to the dance now anyway?" I asked.
"It's in two days. Oh I forgot to ask who's doing you hair ?" she asked.
"Umm well I'll have to do it I haven't got money to get it done after my truck broke down and I had to pay the garage"
"Well not anymore"
"What ?" I asked.

"My cousin Jackie said she will do our hair for us for free"
"Wow are you sure" I asked.
"Yeah but you will have to come over to my house after school"
"Sure" I said.
"I have to go my mum needs the phone. I'll see you tomorrow for that coffee" she said.
"Sure, bye Jazz"
"Bye" she said and hung up.
I closed my phone and put it on my desk with my laptop and IPod. I sat down on my bed my back against the wall. I closed my eyes and started to think what I was going to tell Daniel, how was I going to tell him that I would hurt him if he gets any closer to me?. How am I going to tell him that we should not be together? I have to do it sooner rather than later, I must do it tomorrow before we get any closer. I haven't even know him for long and I'm tell him I don't want to be with him he must think some thinks wrong with me to dump him so soon, wait were not even going out so how am I going to tell him that I don't want to see him anymore ? I had so many questions but I had no one to answer them, except me. I just have to tell Daniel that I can't see him and them keep away and maybe we could become friends. Ok that was the worst answer in the world, become friends where the hell did that come from he'll never probably want to talk me again.

I didn't want to think about it anymore I know what I have to do, I have to tell him that I can't be with him and that he will be better off without me I have to tell him the truth that I don't want to be with him. But I'm not tell the truth am I, I want to be with him I want to spend every day, every hour, every minute even every second with him, but I can't I need to protect him more than to be with him. So tomorrow I have to tell him but where ? I'll find out which locker is his and put a note in there to meet me behind back like today so no one will see us and the parking lot is near so my truck won't be far away.

After all that thinking I needed something to cheer me up so I went downstairs quietly so that my mum and her friends won't hear me and went into the kitchen to some ice cream. I found a spoon and a bowl and when back up into my room. I tuned on my iPod when I entered my room and sat on my bed and eat my ice cream while crying. My head said it was the right thing to do but my heart told me a hole other story it told me to be brave and to listen and trust him but I needed to protect him not to harm him. While I was eating my ice cream I heard the front door shut downstairs and someone start to walk upstairs. I turned off my iPod and put the ice cream under the bed and ran to turned off the light. Then I jumped under the covers so my mum couldn't see me crying if she would check up on me. I was just on time when the door opened to my room and light come through but it shut right after, while I was laying in bed I realized how tired my body was so I fell a sleep right away not worrying about the ice cream and that it would melt by the Moring.

I woke up in the woods laying on the ground with mud under me and trees all around me, I jumped up and looked around to see if anyone was in trouble because this couldn't be a dream of mine it must be a vision. I walked around in a circles looking for someone, then I found myself in front of the same wolf as my last vision with dark fur and dark brown eyes.
It was looking at me in shock like it new me then something happened which surprised me, it started to walk toward me and instead of running and screaming like any other person would do I started to walk toward it. When we finely closed the space between us I fell to my knees and began to stock it ears. And at that moment it started to rain and the woods that we where in began to darken and disappear.

I woke up all sweaty and flushed by my vision but I didn't understand why so I got out of my bed and went into the bathroom to get a drink of water to cool me down, trying not to wake my parents I tiptoed back into bed and fell a sleep and this time I never had a vision I never even had a dream just blackness which was nice.

I woke up in the Morning a little earlier than usually so I got dressed slowly for two reasons; 1. Because I woke up early. And 2. Because I was trying to avoided the day ahead of me.
After I was dressed I went downstairs to make some breakfast for myself but as I entered the kitchen I felt sick so I decide to skip breakfast for this Morning. I looked at the clock on the kitchen wall and I had 20 minutes to get to school but it usually takes me 10 minutes. I was sick of staying in the house so I grabbed my keys and headed out of the door to my truck to drive to school. I took the long way to school through the woods again to spare me some time, I wound down the window to get some air to help me breathe and turned on the radio to take away the silence.

As I entered the school parking lot I was right on time as everyone was heading to the enter the school building. I parked my truck near the school field and jumped out to head to registration. As I grew closer to registration my heart started to thumb harder and harder like any second like it would just burst out of my chest. I walked into the class room with my head down so I wouldn't make eye contact with anyone, when I finally look over to Daniels place no one was there, he must be late I thought or he's not in which would be a relief. I walked over to my sit at the back of the class waiting to see if Daniel would show his face or not. As I was waiting Jazz walked through the door looking all happy and bright. She walked over to her seat next to me smiling but never said anything because Mrs. William started to take the sign in sheet so that we could head to next lesson. After we were all signed in I knew Daniel wasn't coming in today, it made me mad that I would have to leave it another day but a little relived. As I was walking out of the door Jazz called from behind.

"Hey wait up"
I stopped outside the corridor waiting for Jazz to come on out of the door.
"There you are" she said.
"Yeah, what?" it was meant to come out like a question but with my anger about Daniel not being in it come out as if I spat it at her.
"Oh, are you feeling ok ?" she asked the smile disappearing from her face.
"Sorry Jazz I'm just mad at my mother, she just keeps on all the time" I hate lying to Jazz but I couldn't tell her the really reason why I was mad she look so happy this morning and I don't want to ruin it for her.
"Oh bad morning uh ?" she asked.
"Real bad but I don't want to talk about it, so what is it you want to talk to me about ?" I asked.
At that moment Jazz's smile reappeared, "With me and Liam going to the dance together and all well ...." she said trailing off.
"What Jazz?"

"Well were growing closer and I think I'm falling for him Amelia" she said smiling her big grin.
"That's great Jazz but please be careful will yea".
"I promise I will, I really like him"
"Good for you Jazz"
While we were talking the bell must have gone because everyone started to pill out of registration to head to their first class.
"Hey I better get going I'll talk to you later" she said.
"Sure"
I walked down the corridor happy for my friend, that she found someone she really likes.
I've never told Jazz about my gifted or accident, that's how it all happened a big fat accident. I was 13 at the time, my brother Cory came to pick me up from after school club as my parents were at work, big surprise there. Well anyway as we were heading back home my brother phone rang, I told him not to answer it but he never listened to me and answered it anyway, and at that exact moment a car drove into the back side of our car forcing us the topple over. That crash caused me to be unconscious for 3 weeks and in them 3 weeks my hole life changed, I woke up in hospital to find my brother sitting next to me with a broken arm and some cuts and bruises.

He never forgiven himself for what he done but at the end of all of it, it wasn't my brothers fault some teenagers through it would be funny to take the stop sign away and hide it a mile down the road in some bushes. But even when we knew what happened to cause the accident Cory still never forgiven himself. That's why he moved back to New York as soon as possible to get away and to try to forget what happened. At first I hated what was happening to me with the visions and all but now I've grown up and accepted it but all I really want is to find someone to love and to hold but that's never going to happen to me, I'm just going to live a long and lonely life and I know it.

After school I drove straight home taking no detours this time. The drive felt longer than what it was, I arrived home seeing that my parents weren't in so I went straight into the kitchen and got a bottle of water and when straight into my room to get ready for tomorrow. When I entered my room I done the opposite as I was supposed to do, I put my bag on the floor in the corner took off my shoes and coat and laid down on my bed with my water in my hand. My body was aching all over and my eye lids felt heavy on my eyes and before I knew it I fell a sleep.
I was in the same forest in the same place with the same person or animal whatever you wanted to call it as last time. But the weird thing was that it looked and felt like nothing changed, like the vision never really ended. I was still on my knees in front of the dark furry wolf and still covered in mud. It never occurred to me that in my last vision in the end it started to go dark but I thought it was me ending the vision but it was the sky it was getting darker as it was turning the night.

The wolves stare started to soften up as it turned darker and that was my que to go, I got up and started to walk but I didn't know where I was walking to, my legs started to move without me telling them to. It was dark as I walked through the trees and mud the only light that was given off was the moon and I was lucky that it was a full because I would be blind as a bat. As I was walking through the trees I heard a road nearby and started to walk in that direction, but before I could start someone grabbed my wrist to stop me. I turned around slowly looking at my wrist to see a tanned hand around it. The hand was ruff but warm like it's just been warming by a fire. As I was going to look up to see who this mystery person was my eye site when blurry.

I woke up to feel and see my mother shacking me to wake me up, she looked wet like she just come out of the rain but I couldn't be asked to ask questions, but the one question I wanted to ask was why did she wake me up now at this time on this day, I needed to know who this person was and when I had the chance my stupid mother of mine had to wake me up.
"Umm what" I said still half asleep.
"Are you ok?"
"Yeah why?" rubbing my eyes to make my vision clearer.
"You were shacking when I come in to check on you so I put the blanket over you and when in the shower"
So one question was answered now I need like a million to be.
"So why you checking in on my now ?"
"Because I wanted to see if you were warm but when I saw you still shriving I started to worry"

"So you do care" I muttered under my breath.
"I looked to see if you were ok but when I saw you were burning up I had to wake you up to check"
"Well no need to worry I'm fine so night"
It was mean to say but I was a little mad at her that she woke me up in the most important time of the vision. I heard my mom shut the door behind her as she left my room. As she left I jumped out of bed and ran over to my window, I opened it and felt the cold breeze come around me. I stood there looking up into the stars wondering what was I doing with my life, I was 18 years old I should be enjoying my life not wasting it away.