Way to Deep

I'm alone & pissed
I shouldn't be here

I take a red pen & write on my hand
It says: alone-lost-unwanted-strange-broken-HELP ME !!

I trace my vein & wait for the pain
I can't cut my vein because I will die even though that's what I want

I ask to us the bathroom
And on my way I find a plastic knife ( I'm in a cafe)

I walk into the bathroom stall & wait
Wait to be alone in the bathroom
So no one will hear me scream
So no one will hear my pain
So no one will hear me break down in tears
So I wait till I'm alone

I take the knife its way to weak
I try again fail
& again
FAIL
My skin is way 2 strong

I need to go home
I'm getting madder & madder
My desire to cut it getting worse

Call me stupid-desperate-retarded all you want
Cutting my self or dying is my only option
So which would you rather do?