Until The Day I Say Good Bye

I've been trying to kill myself for as long as I can remember.
It all stopped since last year November.
But it came back just a few days ago.
And now again I'm empty, yet full with sorrow.

It's always going to follow me.
It'll never let me free.
It'll always be a part of me.
No matter if I flee.

I feel like living in a world where I don't belong,
Living a life which isn't mine.
It feels like dying,
While staying alive.

I don't want any help.
I'm going to fall back anyway.
I can't deny it.
This is who I am.

I don't know what I have to do.
And I don't know what's going to happen.
All I know is that it'll never leave me alone.
Until the day I'm going to say good bye.