Uncontrollable Anger

I breed anger.
Inside me, it brews.
Growing.
Larger.
The intensity rises, and I feel I cannot control what's going to happen next.
My thoughts are simply morbid, and I hate that I feel this way.
I want to do something about this problem, but then I don't.
I feel like I want to lay down, and give up.
But then I don't, suddenly I feel as if my world has meant nothing, and I'm knocked down with a few cruel words.
I'm furious.
Incredibly furious.
I can't control myself.
Hate, it controls me.
Hate, I cannot get rid of.
Hate, I see in myself.
Hate, I find it fearful.
I don't trust myself, and I don't want to feel this way anymore.
How do you get rid of such an intense feeling of rage?
It pours over you like nothing I've ever seen, and it lingers for an eternity.
Wish it away, but it comes back, stronger.
I hate feeling this way.
I hate feeling this way.
I hate feeling this way.
I want to pick at myself, rip myself apart, and free the beast within.
At this moment, it feels like the only way to break free from this wretched nightmare.
I hate feeling this way.