Too Many People Don’t Know Me for Me

The life I live is one I am not sure who I am
The people I know are all themselves
I have this thing where I am never really me
I hide the real me, the one no one seems to know

The real me has so many feelings bottled up inside
Having no way to release these horrible feelings
I hide in my room and cry most afternoons and nights

I can not seem to do anything right at the moment
At taekwondo I keep stuffing up
School I just don’t want to be there
And work I never want to go no more

If I had things my way I would be dead
But no one wants me to go away
Too many of my friends are careful around me
I feel as though I stop people doing what they enjoy

My friends, those I hang with and work mates
Are all the same, they become worried about me
Especially when they begin to know the real me

I like to hide away from the world
Away from all those who can hurt me
I rather be the only one who can hurt me
I would rather die than fall in love

But most of all in life I would like a real family
A real family that loves me for me
Friends who listen to me and they don’t hurt me
But at the moment I will have to keep living the life I am.